Sep 28, 2009

Life is Beautiful

This is how i feel, irrespective of the chaos and the stress. Life is beautiful. Cannot thank god for the wonderful men in my life. Cannot thank enough for everything i have.

Aug 31, 2009

Mommy world

Kids they are the most wonderful thing to happen to anyone. I know the stress that come with them but it's all worth at the end . They teach you life's most valuable lessons that you cannot learn in an university or under no life course teachings. Just as my lil S is heading to be a toddler the urge to have another kid just runs into my head every now and then.
There is always the usual talk bat when to have the next and whats the correct spacing ...I won't discuss that here bcos it works differently for different pol and their background. As for me I am ready to have another one a brother or sister for lil S to play/share/fight/enjoy.
Being the eldest of 3 I know what fun it was growing up with 2siblings and I can't trade anything for the wonderful memories I have growing up with my brother and sister.

Yesterday, after a long time ...i actually told my husband that I really would like to have more kids. That's right not another one..more.SOme times it's scary how I get attached lil S. Sometimes i feel my world just starts with him and ends with him. I am sure all moms feel the same way (attachment). But i wonder if all moms think its scary to be so attached to one Lil kid so much so that you feel your world will end without him or her. I am thinking just like my mom or all others i know who have more than 1 kid they probably share their attachment with their kids and it doesn't feel this intense? Maybe maybe not.
On the flip side I don't want to end up feeling attached to all three of them and feel devastated when its time to let them go .
What do you Moms think about you share the same feeling..i would definitely love to know.

Aug 27, 2009

Garbharakshambigai shloka

Aehyaehi Bhagavan Brahman, Praja-Karthaha Prajaapathae I

Pragrihneeshva Balim Sa-imam, saapathyam raksha Gharbineem II

Ashvinou Dheva Dhevaesow, Pragruhneedhan Balim Dhvimam I

Saapathyaam Garbineem sa-imam sa Rakshatham Poojayaanayaa II

Rudhrasha Aekaadhasha Broktha , Pragrahnanthu Balim Dhvimam I

Yakshamaagam Preethayae Vrutham, Nithyam Rakshandhu Garbineem II

Aadhithyaa Dhvaadhasha Brokthaha, Pragrimneethvam Balim thvimam I

Yashmaakam Thejasaam Vridhya, nithyam rakshatha garbineem II

Vinayaka Ganaadhyaksha, Shiva puthra Mahabala I

Pragrihneeshva Balim sa-imam, Saapathyam raksha garbineem II

Skandha Shanmuga devaesha puthra preethi vivardhana I

Pragrihneeshva Balim sa-imam, Saapathyam raksha garbineem II

Prabhaasaha prabhavashyamaha prathyoushow maaruthoenalaha I

Druvodhara dharashaiva, vasavoeshtow prakeerthithaha I

Pragruhneethvam balim sa-imam, nithyam Rakshatha Garbineem II

Pithurdevi pidhushraeshtae, bahu puthree mahaa bale I

Boodha sreshtae nisha vaasae, nirvrithae shounagapriyae I

Pragrihneeshva Balim sa-imam, Saapathyam raksha garbineem II

Raksha Raksha Mahadeva, Baktha-Anugraha karaga I

Pakshi Vaahana Govindha, Saapathyam raksha Garbineem

Aug 26, 2009

Pregnancy and Diet

Ok so i have been talking to my cousin who found out she is pregnant ..huraahhh..
It reminded me of my first days when i found out i was pregnant. Of course the first days i mean around 8 weeks. Yes i was so laid back or lets say dead sure that i wasn't going to get pregnant that i never even bothered to test:)
So i was on this really awesome diet that i gained exactly how much i had to gain for my weight ie 22 pounds. So here iam writing exactly what i ate so my cousins or fellow blogger can read if they are interested.
Break fast: 1 big glass of water as soon as i wake up,
1 cup oatmeal with i glass of milk(traditional oats
sometimes i had toast(wholewheat bread) eggs in any form

Mid morning snack 10-15 almonds/walnuts /pecans
1 apple
1 cheese stick(low fat)
1 cup pom juice

Lunch 2 cups rice
green veges
egg if i haven't eaten in my breakfast
1 cup yogurt

tea time 1 or 2 apple/ any fruit (nectarine, peaches, pear etc)
1 cheese stick
1 cup milk

dinner 2 wholewheat rotis
1 cup yogurt

1 hour before sleep: 1 cup milk
and lots and lots of strawberries

I was asked to follow a diet where i eat " Protein, fat and Carbs" in every meal breakfast lunch and dinner. I was asked to drink 4 glasses of milk for calcium, avoid
caffeine, chocolate, sugar through out pregnancy, mushrooms and lettuce in the first trimester. I also ate avocados for fat and ate lots of oats for fiber.

I walked 2 miles a day ever day irrespective of of how tired i was. I think if i was able to maintain a good weight it was more bcoz of staying active than anything else.

I tried not to give in to my cravings...but every now and then meaning once in a week i would hog on ice cream especially my last trimester was summer and i couldn't deal with the heat and really needed to keep myself cool.

I also drank 2 liters of water in a day.... of course i almost built a tent outside my bathroom...yeah iam serious i was thinking of just sleeping outside the bathroom as i couldn't deal the constant visit to pee.

That's all i can think of ..for now. I will update this post as i remember . Till then be happy and enjoy your pregnancy. Remember you are pregnant not handicapped , lead a normal life do everything that makes you was indeed the most wonderful part of my life.

This picture is taken from

Aug 18, 2009

Would you?

Would you deal with people who are unbelievably diplomatic?
Would you deal with people who believe they can follow a rule and force others to something else?
Would you tolerate someone talking shit about your family in your house?
Would you put a shut to nonsense mumblings day in and day out?
would you still be in touch with hypocrites?
Would you think it is necessary to have a relationship with such unnecessary chaos?

Jul 12, 2009

Curious Case of Benjamin Button

I watched this movie and really was touched.

"Nothing Lasts for long"
There is no time to start anything can do whatever you want whenever you want"

My lesson for today....

enjoy every moment for nothing lasts long:)

Jul 5, 2009

Yoga and my wonderful experience!!

Yesterday my very first time ever in a yoga class. I knew it was about flexibility relaxation etc.. I went in expecting to just laze arround and do some streching excercises. I am taken by surprise. It was hard!! I couldnt stay in some poses for more than 10 sec max.I thought i was so flexible and here i could feel tightness in areas i never knew exisisted.The background music was amazing it took me to a place where i could visualise water falls, hear the rustling noise of the trees, smell the air after first rain fall. Whatever it was it just relaxed me and now iam addicted to Yoga. So much so i dont care what iam doing i have to go attend my yoga class:)

I wish i knew about this when i was really stressed and whne stressors were a part of my life. But neverthless i know now and who ever is experiencing any kind of stress yoga class is your saviour. I swear by it!!

BTW this pic is from, just love where this woman is sittng...i so want to be in her spot:)

Jun 23, 2009


Iam reading ...yes finally after 6mns..i have really started to enjoy my reading. I have been meaning to read this book Power of intention by Wayne Dyer. Yesterday was my lucky day. I did step in to the library for myself after a long time. I picked this book and signed up for summer reading club. The idea is to read as many books as possible. if i did finish 3 books then i do get some waffle prizes...wohooooo...not that iam looking foward for the prizes(wink) but yeah some thing to look foward to. i hope reading atleast 5 books i have in my mind:) more about the books in my next blog

Day Care

Day care, the dilemma to send the baby to a day care is in every parents mind especially working moms.The other choice being a nanny. But how do one really trust another person in your home? At least in a day care there are cameras...but really does that solve the purpose? The only thing that consoles me is my Son will have friends as he is a peoples person. i know it when i see him laugh and enjoy when he sees other kids. What would he learn if he stayed home alone with a nanny. ON the other hand will the day care teachers take good care of him like parents do? Will they actually pick him up when he cries? will they feed him if he refuses once or twice. Will they read to him? With all this questions in my mind i can just be brave and send him to a day care like i would to his school when he is ready.

I am not sure how most working moms feel but Iam most of the time feeling guilty for not able to take care of my son. Either he is been taken care of by grand parents and or he would be put in a day care. whatever the case is , i always feel he is my responsibility and its my duty to give him the best care i can. Saying that what would i do without working. Being a therapist is all i have known all along. I am not sure if i could be a stay home mom. I know i would be frustrated and upset if I am not contributing to my family financially. I have been an independent person and independent in every aspect.

I am on a break now and i think i just have to enjoy every day i have with my son and take things as it comes.Such is life you got to do what you got to do.

Jun 21, 2009

Back from hibernation

Oh how i missed writing. But the last six month was one rollercoaster ride. Although i did learn a lot about myself and people arround me. I learnt that no matter what some relations stay true to their name.

Lil S is now 10 mns..he is growing fast. I would wonder how i would bring him up, but iam surprised i have learnt so much from him. Every single day he makes me realise that certain things are not taken for granted. Sleep is definately something i really treasure. To be able to sleep 8hrs without being interrupted is a dream now.

After having family for so long,things are a bit hectic. But i must admit iam enjoying being busy and being able to spend my time with Lil S.Now he reads with me..although his reading style is a bit different than mine ...i dont understand what he is saying. But i sure know he is reading in his baby language with me.

The first thing he did after he crawled fowards was to pick his books...boy was i thrilled or what!! I am glad he loves books. He has now adapted to play on his own. I was a bit worried after his grandparents left. I wondered how he would react to being on his own. He missed them on the first day and then after he found his friends in his toys and books.
Children adapt so well to a new situation they live in present they forget past and dont worry about future.Thats my new lesson as of now!!


After a long time N and myself have supper on time.Untimely food and unhealthy food just had been our routine for a while. I dont know how many times we must have had pizza in a month:). Sometimes we listen to our toungue rather than our mind or body. As per my promise...i have been still able to keep up to one new recipie that interests N. I havent heard him complain a day about not having good food. Iam happy. In this process i have taken a great deal of interest in learning new recipies that are healthy, quick and tasty to eat. Tasty is numero uno on N's list and healthy on mine. So far the food that is being cooked has satisfied both our conditions. So far so good.

Lil S goes to the day care now.Its hard to leave him for long hours at the day care. I tell myself that it gives him an oppurtunity to meet other kids and play and i get to work a lil bit. In the evenings when all three of us sit to eat supper we feel like a family. Its better this way than stay home,get frustrated and exhausted. Hence hats off to all stay home moms who do what they do.Iam noone to say whats right and whats wrong but this situation works for us and i am at peace with it.

Sleepless nights are still a part of our lives and yes both of us no longer cry or complain about it...we enjoy. Yes thats right we enjoy playing in the middle of the night with S or clean his poop or even just rock him to sleep.
Being a parent is wonderful, you have to experience to know what it is. Rest is all words and only words.

As i walk though the forrest
As i see big small and leaning trees
My mind sings as my heart dances
The beautiful lake and ducks swimming
The lil kids camping and fishing.
The winds blowing a sweet whistle,
Make me want to dance as it drizzles.
Like a bird that flies from a cage
Like a waterfall that gushes from top of a mountain
Like a free fall of a sky diver
My heart feels free
With every breath of fresh air
The silence in my nest
is a song of a nightingale
How i love this feeling
for it tastes as sweet as honey

Jan 30, 2009


Its been a while when i have been thinking about my friends in general. I have a big list of friends i do keep in touch. Of late because of series of events i have been thinking of just clearing off my list of friends. Sometimes its good to review and see who your true friends are. Its been a while and i have been putting up with some nonsense...either have so call friends say things to you which is not very nice. How can someone insult you in public when they tell you that you are their good friend? So i do have a few that are definitely coming of my list. One that is jealous of how my new born looks, one that out rightly tells me how old i look,one that thinks being a friend is baby sitting me !! Ridiculous. It been tough to ignore them and not listen to their problems. But like one of my close friends tell me are they worth your time? i definitely think no.
After having S i definitely have a different perspective to life. I always feel that there is very little time for my family and very little time to spend with my little one. In all this the last thing i would like to do is waste my time on useless people who add no value to my life but to belittle me on every instance.

Maybe not my new years resolution , but my new resolution in my life to have friends who are worth my time!!

Jan 3, 2009

Good Bye 2008!!

I was just thinking how my 2008 was and can i tell you, it had some awesome things in store for me.
From being Pregnant to starting my new job in NYC, to trips arranged by N, my surprise baby shower which had all my family members , to arrival of little S 25 days early. Everything was one super surprise over another.The year ended very fast as i celebrated the new year's eve with parents,siblings and family after a long long time!!!