Garam Chai and Samosa

Remember the days when it rains and the schools closed. The feeling of staying home to mommy and to play arround do nothing was so much fun. As it pours today i remember my childhood days of running on the roads getting wet...getting yelled at by parents. Mom would get us all cleaned up , hair half wet and I allready beginning to sniff. Then came garam chai and samosa... my fav part. How much i enjoyed sitting on our sofa watching the rain pour and smiling at me . I knew rain would come and let me free from routine ,free from crazy school, free from nonsense ramblings from teachers. Rain always smiled at me like it knew what was in my mind. Rain my friend who taught me what freedom was. who made me enjoy a simple day .
Today after so many years i feel the same . As i quit work and stay home looking outside my window rain came back to tell me how wonderful it is to have this freedom. A freedom to do what you want, nothing to tie you down. Its raining cats and dogs and i see Rain smiling at me as i sip my chai !!

Finding Myself

Its been almost a year and i have always wondered what i really want to be. Meaning what id like to do. My thoughts wander here and there and i come back to same routine . Same old work/home/errands/chores.In the past 2 years after Sushens birth i have realised one thing that hapiness is " now". Its not what i will feel if i had or did something. Hapiness is a way its my way of living. In my own way.. i have started doing lil things that keeps me happy. eg reading a magazine i always wanted to on my way to work. Writing my blog from my iphone. enrolled my self to a dance class. Which actually made me realise that iam a performer. I love dance , i love being fit, i love execises and to excercise, all topics of health make me alive and so want to know more. I am an artist as well. With all these qualities i have been wondering what i could do? This question arrises every now and then when iam so agitated at work, when iam unhappy at work. I am meant to do something else and this is not my path.Dont get me wrong i do my job to 100% but my heart is not at what i do. I quit my work this week. It wasnt the best way or the reason to get out but it definately gave me peace. I felt so at ease..like a big burden offmy shoulders. I now see a clear picture of what i want and i am on my path to acheive my Goal. I know i will find me ...soon Me who will enjoy every day every hour and every min.

Teenage love

Both in the same room by Chance
He looks and she looks
They exchange a glance

Both act cool like they didn't look
Butterfly in her stomach and wondering the same in his
He says Hi and her heart skips a beat
Wondering if they were in the same room by chance
He walks ahead with a note/card something in hand
She is star eyed weaving a story in her mind
Tall and dark
pretty and sweet
what a match she dreams
6 footer and she a five something
Would it be odd or a math made in Heaven
While she is dressed as a bride in her wonderland

her six footer shows her a picture of a damsel he would like to wed!

Meaning of Life

I saw this morning and its so true. Apt for todays thoughts that run in my head. I saw it first when my friend posted it on Facebook ...i so feel like writing about it.
To write whats in it allready...
1.BE HAPPY
2.SHOW UP
3.FOLLOW YOUR HEART
4.FIND A NEW PERSPECTIVE
5.HAVE A SENSE OF WONDER
6 FIND PEOPLE YOU LOVE
7. SET GOALS
8.HELP OTHERS
9. DANCE
10. PAMPER YOURSELF
11.FACE YOUR FEARS
12. GO TO A MUSEUM
13. EXCERCISE
14.LIMIT TELEVISION
15. GET IN TOUCH WITH NATURE
16. LIGHTEN UP
17.GET A GOOD NIGHTS SLEEP
18. READ BOOKS
19. BUY YOURSELF FLOWERS
20. DONT COMPARE YOURSELF WIH OTHERS
21. DONT BEAT YOURSELF
22.BE OPEN TO NEW IDEAS
23. DONT FOCUS ON NEGATIVE THOUGHTS
24.FOCUS ON CREATING WHAT YOU DESIRE
25.MAKE TIME JUST TO HAVE FUN
26.KEEP THE ROMANCE IN YOUR LIFE
27. MAKE A GRATITUDE LIST
28.LOVE YOUR MOTHER EARTH
29. WANT WHAT YOU HAVE
30.BE TRUE TO YOURSELF

A day from the past

I almost forgot how I spent my days 3 yrs ago when I was at home full time. Today after many
Many days I spent all day doing my fav activities around the house. What more but relaxing.
The laundry, the dirty pots and pans, the unclean floor called out to me....but I did the most important things that made me happy i just was myself and lazed arround and did everything that made me happy. I had a good hour of yoga class
My cup of coffee without interruption. Really you have no idea how long it's been
since I had a cup of coffee without talking or even being interrupted.
I read one of my fav authors
Saw oprah Winfrey show
Cooked and of course attended to my never ending list of chores around my house.

End result inspite of going through my menstrual cycle iam still not grumpy, irritated sad depressed ..none of the symptoms that allways persists:)
I truly believe that when i do things i want and iam happy doing iam a happy person and there is peace in the house and i am making everyone arround me very happy:)

Dance Baby Dance!!

So in an attempt to find some clases arround my home ...I came across an awesome Bollywood Dance class. Ofcourse with fitness in my mind, i did join it. We performed for the india day celebration in new york and Stamford. The fun and enjoyment in learning and dancing is unexplainable. I love Dancing and this just opened doors for more fun.

I am going to post a clipping from our dance that we persformed in NYC as a part of Independence day celebrations. Pretty priety zinta was the grand Marshal.Apart fom that there were about 600+ audience , lots of food and amazing dance performances. It rained and lil S and N cheered. Lil S danced all the while i danced on the stage:)
I had funand hope you have fun watching it as well:))

Toddler lessons

This past 10 days Lil S was really sick. The usual clinging got even worse. Thank god i had 2 weeks off...Thank thank GOD!! I am not sure how days started and ended and all i remember is Lil S scream NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
Days came and nights went..i hadn't stepped out of the house until the end of the week and My brother & his wife visited us to celebrate my Lil monster two. I saw light at the end of the tunnel. I had set of 4 hands to take care of him. He got better health wise and N took a deep breath and me smiled like i won a lottery!!. We went out hiked, watched movies, ate out , spoke for hours and it just seemed like the frustration went out of the window. Well he is a toddler what can u expect a sick toddler to do?
The next day again week 2 Monday ...Iam all in good mood but now suddenly Lil Angel S has turned 2 and he showed me what Naughty two meant:)
for one He wanted me to sit in his Car which was physically not possible hence he cried for 30 mins with screams of NOOOOOOOOOOOO WHICH PIERCED MY EARS and iam partially deaf to any kind of NO.
SECONDLY he want to sit on my hips and cook the entire meal just like he would want like cut 5 onions ...he doesn't care how u do it ...but it has to be onions ...if i put him on the floor there it goes NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AND CRY FOR 30 MINS
Then his creative mind struck and Picasso wanted his crayons...the next thing i know my white colored walls have been artistically scribbled with colors of all kinds. Let alone me being upset the next set of crying was NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO because i didn't say "WOW".. ANOTHER 30 MINS. After all that crying and me managing my house hold errands ..the end of the day i had to tell N to take care of him and i went out to RUN...if this is the beginning of terrible two i don't know what else is coming.

Lil S now speaks long sentences. He says Mommy look, i can throw the chair out of the window. Thank god he cant throw me out of the window .....
Was i talking about Baby 2...well the last 10 days the lesson my toddler taught me is Numero Uno get your act together and learn to deal with him let alone the idea of baby two don't even breathe about baby two.
That's Right...poor N is all sad ...but yeah one at a time.

All you Mothers of two and more babies..hats off to you and to your hubbies for everything that you guys have gone through with kids. Do tell me what you think and share your experiences with me:-)

Baby number two?

Time flies... well it disappeared. My lil baby is growing up fast. He talks a mile a minute. I enjoy everyday with his talks, his stories out of imagination, his tantrums, crying, whining, everything.
Motherhood makes me so happy that i crave for another one...but really when is a good time...i wonder. I talk to many many parents and everyone gives me their opinion and how they manage their finances etc... But really i feel is what works for one never works for another.
I have started to just started to take time off for myself laze arround, go to classes, read books write...well wrote something on this after a year.I wonder if thsi would be the right time. When i meet my other friends who have gotten preg the second time arround and i feel maybe its time for me. The good part is i have never ever envied another woman without kids...their free time...never. I dont even want to be without kids... Iam glad my lil one was a surprise and i hope my next is a surprise too ..there is an mystery, tension in a nice way ..a bit of stomach rolling when you find out you are pregnant and you havent thought about it or well didnt think you would. So iam so looking foward to all the oooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhh, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, howwwwwwwwwww, nowwwwwwwwww, when, Ok, kind of expressions that follow:)

2009 recap

2009
Pay cut
My lil S started his day care and the series of his sickness.
Travel travel travel
New job
started 2009 at cincinati and ended right there:
lil S turned a year old.
Brother got engaged and we are excited abt our new addition to the family.
Sister is pregnant and it's going to Be a boy
learnt a lot about myself and learnt to deal with people I normally won't put up with.
I learnt time heals most things and most problems comes in relationships with 3rd person interfering and you don't do anything about it.
I feel that I can't be bound by custom traditions and it completely suffocates me.
I alsolearnt that's it's hard for me to forgive people who say mean things about my loved ones.
Diplomacy is not allways bad.
Putting up with mumbling just screws ones own head.
Don't spend money when you don't want to.
So I guess 2009 wasn't all that bad then huh ...it tought me some of the hardestlessons of my life.