Reading

Iam reading ...yes finally after 6mns..i have really started to enjoy my reading. I have been meaning to read this book Power of intention by Wayne Dyer. Yesterday was my lucky day. I did step in to the library for myself after a long time. I picked this book and signed up for summer reading club. The idea is to read as many books as possible. if i did finish 3 books then i do get some waffle prizes...wohooooo...not that iam looking foward for the prizes(wink) but yeah some thing to look foward to. i hope reading atleast 5 books i have in my mind:) more about the books in my next blog

Day Care

Day care, the dilemma to send the baby to a day care is in every parents mind especially working moms.The other choice being a nanny. But how do one really trust another person in your home? At least in a day care there are cameras...but really does that solve the purpose? The only thing that consoles me is my Son will have friends as he is a peoples person. i know it when i see him laugh and enjoy when he sees other kids. What would he learn if he stayed home alone with a nanny. ON the other hand will the day care teachers take good care of him like parents do? Will they actually pick him up when he cries? will they feed him if he refuses once or twice. Will they read to him? With all this questions in my mind i can just be brave and send him to a day care like i would to his school when he is ready.

I am not sure how most working moms feel but Iam most of the time feeling guilty for not able to take care of my son. Either he is been taken care of by grand parents and or he would be put in a day care. whatever the case is , i always feel he is my responsibility and its my duty to give him the best care i can. Saying that what would i do without working. Being a therapist is all i have known all along. I am not sure if i could be a stay home mom. I know i would be frustrated and upset if I am not contributing to my family financially. I have been an independent person and independent in every aspect.

I am on a break now and i think i just have to enjoy every day i have with my son and take things as it comes.Such is life you got to do what you got to do.

Back from hibernation

Oh how i missed writing. But the last six month was one rollercoaster ride. Although i did learn a lot about myself and people arround me. I learnt that no matter what some relations stay true to their name.

Lil S is now 10 mns..he is growing fast. I would wonder how i would bring him up, but iam surprised i have learnt so much from him. Every single day he makes me realise that certain things are not taken for granted. Sleep is definately something i really treasure. To be able to sleep 8hrs without being interrupted is a dream now.

After having family for so long,things are a bit hectic. But i must admit iam enjoying being busy and being able to spend my time with Lil S.Now he reads with me..although his reading style is a bit different than mine ...i dont understand what he is saying. But i sure know he is reading in his baby language with me.

The first thing he did after he crawled fowards was to pick his books...boy was i thrilled or what!! I am glad he loves books. He has now adapted to play on his own. I was a bit worried after his grandparents left. I wondered how he would react to being on his own. He missed them on the first day and then after he found his friends in his toys and books.
Children adapt so well to a new situation they live in present they forget past and dont worry about future.Thats my new lesson as of now!!

Routine

After a long time N and myself have supper on time.Untimely food and unhealthy food just had been our routine for a while. I dont know how many times we must have had pizza in a month:). Sometimes we listen to our toungue rather than our mind or body. As per my promise...i have been still able to keep up to one new recipie that interests N. I havent heard him complain a day about not having good food. Iam happy. In this process i have taken a great deal of interest in learning new recipies that are healthy, quick and tasty to eat. Tasty is numero uno on N's list and healthy on mine. So far the food that is being cooked has satisfied both our conditions. So far so good.

Lil S goes to the day care now.Its hard to leave him for long hours at the day care. I tell myself that it gives him an oppurtunity to meet other kids and play and i get to work a lil bit. In the evenings when all three of us sit to eat supper we feel like a family. Its better this way than stay home,get frustrated and exhausted. Hence hats off to all stay home moms who do what they do.Iam noone to say whats right and whats wrong but this situation works for us and i am at peace with it.

Sleepless nights are still a part of our lives and yes both of us no longer cry or complain about it...we enjoy. Yes thats right we enjoy playing in the middle of the night with S or clean his poop or even just rock him to sleep.
Being a parent is wonderful, you have to experience to know what it is. Rest is all words and only words.

As i walk though the forrest
As i see big small and leaning trees
My mind sings as my heart dances
The beautiful lake and ducks swimming
The lil kids camping and fishing.
The winds blowing a sweet whistle,
Make me want to dance as it drizzles.
Like a bird that flies from a cage
Like a waterfall that gushes from top of a mountain
Like a free fall of a sky diver
My heart feels free
With every breath of fresh air
The silence in my nest
is a song of a nightingale
How i love this feeling
for it tastes as sweet as honey