mookuthi

New names

2011-05-21T23:39:00.001-05:00

My 2 yr 10 month calls me Butter cup and his dad chocolate chip.....everything he says and does I feel like capturing that moment in time and store it away. A time when I can revisit and feel happy just like all times before:-)

Interview with Carol Dweck | | Richer Life Insights

2011-05-16T20:46:00.000-05:00

Interesting Read
Interview with Carol Dweck | | Richer Life Insights

Project : Painting

2011-05-14T09:45:00.001-05:00

S (who is now 2 years 8 mns) had to make something for his teachers and this is what he made!! every single of them:)

Above two are his teachers that Lil S drew.He made a greeting card and put these sketches inside.The greeting card was made out of his old painting he made in his day care.

Precious Mother's day gifts:)

2011-05-08T19:58:00.000-05:00

Aren't these gifts the most precious things ever!!
Lil S planted a bean seed in his day care and it grew this big....

A mothers day poster..

Am I lucky or what!!

Weekend

2011-05-06T19:06:00.001-05:00

It took this

And this...

to melt away the weeks stress from work....thank god for simple things in life. Life is beautiful:)

A very normal workday

2011-05-03T19:20:00.003-05:00

After a big goof up taking the wrong direction train I reached my station close to work 2 hours late!!
As soon as I got out the train...this is what I saw

The sight of water,sound of waves as the rowers paddle away, smell of fresh air and lucious greenery just melted my stress away. Nothing was more pleasant to my senses than this. Thank you god for sending me such a beautiful day. I couldn't stop myself from sitting there for 10 mins admiring nature....I was 2 hours 10 mins late to work no biggie:-)

My little teacher

2011-04-22T08:38:00.032-05:00

The art of balancing work and home and parenthood is as difficult as one makes it to be. Iam not saying its easy. All iam saying is its enjoyable. It is definately energy and time consuming but its not bad if you have fun with it. When lil S was born i was so paranoid about how i was going to work , cook clean and take care of an infant. Ofcourse my husband was going to pitch in...but how was a big question in my mind. Now i know that what got to be done has to be done and it will fall in its place after a lil chaos or lots of chaos in my case. Today after lil s is almost 3 i sometimes think of having another baby.
A good friend asked me "really? really ?"
I said yes for real . She said "do you want all that chaos and sleepless nights and stress and all that!".
i said no i dont wish all that but now i know what most couples without kids dont know...that its all WORTH every minute . Because Children bring you the joy happiness, teach you the most important lessons in life that no school or prestigious college can teach you. Motherhood is great is an understatement.I value the smallest things in life.

I have always loved nature but i truly appreciate
Its beauty even more now . You ask how? My son gets excited
When he sees a pink tree or a red tree.. Its spring and trees are full of flowers and they are the same trees which i used to catch a glimpse and say wow, when i walked by. But now ots OMG its beautiful. Lil S tought me to enjoy 5 mins in the morning watering my plants calling out to birds and feeding them. Its for him i bought back all my interest to nurture a garden in my balcony.
I do crafts with him ... We paint, draw.. Go to parks in all odd hrs just to enjoy sunshine while we have.

I take long walks with him and my husband ..FYI: Both of us gave up on walking thanks to our busy careers. I appreciate our family time and thank god more often to this wonderful child who teaches us to live life every min-NO every second:-)

Lemon Tree - Fools Garden

2011-04-20T10:34:00.000-05:00

Catchy tune my all time fav!! Enjoy:-)

With A Little Help From my Friends- The Beatles with lyrics

2011-04-14T10:09:00.001-05:00

This post is for my friends who have helped me in every walk of my life.
Love you guys and this day i am dedicating this song to you all. Especially today when iam going through the toughest part of rewinding a past that i would like to delete forever. Thank you for helping me face something i blocked all these years:)

Favourite things

2011-03-13T10:58:00.004-05:00

Big Cars and motorbikes
Noises alike
Legos and Robot
built and destroyed
Singing to words and
infectious rhymes

These are a few of HIS
Favourite things

Joy to see strawberry
colors of tulips
Hugging lil babies
and dancing arround them
Upset on lil things
and cranky for no reason

Oh this is my lil S
and my Favourite toy

laughing and smiling
Talking sweet nothings
gazing at stars and
dancing to nothing
Mcqueen and chick hick
your car addition

Oh these are a few of
lis S favourite things

Amma's notes for Kekadruma at 2 years 6months

Curry leaf plant

2011-02-19T09:03:00.000-05:00

My fascination for curry plant started just few months back. Being a south Indian curry leaf is not a stranger to me. I have seen it in almost all food recipes made at home and every relative I visited in south India.
It has no specific taste but it does add a special aroma to any south Indian food preparation. Last few months I have been diligently researching about herbs and home remedies for growing healthy hair. Not to my surprise, just like old tales I have heard from my parents and grand parents, curry leaf is most sorted herb in aurvedic medicines for hair fall/loss.
Well then ...my next step was to find out how I could grow them at home. I wasn't sure given the extreme temp I live in if the plant could survive.
Like every thing has a way to enter in your life when you ask for them...I saw a curry plant in my tax consultants house. They have been growing their plant for 25 years and indoors!! After a quick lesson about how to take care water grow etc... The proud owner promised me a cutting my next visit as it was late in the evening and she did not want to disturb her plant:-)

Curry leaf is also called karrivepallai in Tamil. Karri=curry vepala=neem ellai=leaf.
It's botanical name is Murraya koenigii

I will post you a picture of my curry plant when it reaches home. Till then enjoy these pics from the net.
Grandmas stories: curry leaf eaten first thing in the morning in empty stomach (raw) helps stop hair fall! No scientific basis to this...but yeah what's wrong in trying out:-)

Terrible two

2011-01-25T09:18:00.000-05:00

As you craft words to sentences
Your baby language
rings music to my ears.
Your Late night wake ups
Your temper tantrums.
Watch out kekadruma is on a war
He is fighting terrible twos
He is taking it to another level
It's even worse than trying threes
Or freaking fours!!
It's a new 2 where he sings, dances to music
His parents to his tune!
Amma's notes for kekadruma @ 2yrs 4 mns

Appreciation

2011-01-18T21:41:00.000-05:00

As I was browsing I read an interesting article by Diane about inviting pleasures in our lives.
The first and foremost is appreciating. To appreciate whats happening at the moment or in the day.
Appreciation
It rained and snowed, I had to take a day off and stay with my lil S. I appreciate mother natures gift to me .while the world is annoyed with her for bad commute/weather etc...I have been blessed to enjoy sweet nothings from my lil S. He sang for me, played with me read books, slept hugging me. Oh what a day. Thank you mother nature!I appreciate all the abundance you have brought in my life.

Thank you for bringing the biggest joy in my life my lil S.

The weight loss tamasha!

2011-01-16T23:11:00.002-05:00

It's been 2 weeks into new year and my battle to weight loss is still going on.
Every single day I have been Reading articles on correct diet, exercise regime, to do lists etc. The frustration builds up as I don't find time to do anything. I have a relative at home that's leaving tomorrow. So tomorrow is my day to start with my south beach diet.
Frankly it's the only diet that let's me eat all the time while I shed pounds I did that right after lil S was born and lost all belly fat. Ofcourse I didn't continue and added lots and lots of pounds on my trip to India and it's been a story /tamasha about weight loss again.

I started this abs crunch set of exercises that was published in prevention magazine. It has a routine that one needs to follow and I will update my weight loss in a weeks time.
Wish me luck:-)
Jan 15
Weight in pounds 134 :(
Target =115
time line may 15
More on this a week later on tamasha part 2

Introducing Kekadruma

2011-01-15T15:20:00.001-05:00

Kekadhruma what who?? my husband when half asleep trying to tell a story to lil S named an aligator " Kekadhruma" Lil S calls his alligator " Keka druma". We wanted the alligator to be the bad guy in the story...however Lil S loves Kekadruma to bits and now in my mind Lil S is our Kekadruma.
So now Kekadruma is this sweet aligator who in our stories every night tells Lil S things we want him to know. Drinking from Sippy Cup, POOPY in the potty, using crayons on paper and not on walls..etc and etc. This somehow happens to be our fav character in our house. We recently bought an alligator from IKEA and Lil S loves his kekadruma and takes him to bed ...reads him books and wakes him up and says bye when he goes to school. In the original story the good boy elephant was named "Sushendra" after lil S . Lil S likes his elephant "Susindra"too . He digged out an elephant soft toy from his toy box and now Sushindraand Kekadruma both lay next to My lil S Our own" Kakadruma"

Resolutions or my to do list 2011

2011-01-13T21:30:00.000-05:00

This year I want to work on few things.
Want to live in the "now".
Spend more time with S and N
Get back to my weight that I was while in Canada.
Give myself a lot of Me time
Write more and often
Forgive and try to forget all that /who hurt me.
Finally fitness of mind body and soul
Stay away from people that are toxic!
To do list
Connecticut license( driver and Pt)
yoga
Dance
Paint
Write
Workout
Enjoy enjoy every moment and every minute of being alive:-)

What is your new year resolution? If you don't believe in
Resolutions what are the things you would like to work on this
Year. Share with me:-)

Garam Chai and Samosa

2010-10-01T09:31:00.004-05:00

Remember the days when it rains and the schools closed. The feeling of staying home to mommy and to play arround do nothing was so much fun. As it pours today i remember my childhood days of running on the roads getting wet...getting yelled at by parents. Mom would get us all cleaned up , hair half wet and I allready beginning to sniff. Then came garam chai and samosa... my fav part. How much i enjoyed sitting on our sofa watching the rain pour and smiling at me . I knew rain would come and let me free from routine ,free from crazy school, free from nonsense ramblings from teachers. Rain always smiled at me like it knew what was in my mind. Rain my friend who taught me what freedom was. who made me enjoy a simple day .
Today after so many years i feel the same . As i quit work and stay home looking outside my window rain came back to tell me how wonderful it is to have this freedom. A freedom to do what you want, nothing to tie you down. Its raining cats and dogs and i see Rain smiling at me as i sip my chai !!

Finding Myself

2010-09-30T21:59:00.005-05:00

Its been almost a year and i have always wondered what i really want to be. Meaning what id like to do. My thoughts wander here and there and i come back to same routine . Same old work/home/errands/chores.In the past 2 years after Sushens birth i have realised one thing that hapiness is " now". Its not what i will feel if i had or did something. Hapiness is a way its my way of living. In my own way.. i have started doing lil things that keeps me happy. eg reading a magazine i always wanted to on my way to work. Writing my blog from my iphone. enrolled my self to a dance class. Which actually made me realise that iam a performer. I love dance , i love being fit, i love execises and to excercise, all topics of health make me alive and so want to know more. I am an artist as well. With all these qualities i have been wondering what i could do? This question arrises every now and then when iam so agitated at work, when iam unhappy at work. I am meant to do something else and this is not my path.Dont get me wrong i do my job to 100% but my heart is not at what i do. I quit my work this week. It wasnt the best way or the reason to get out but it definately gave me peace. I felt so at ease..like a big burden offmy shoulders. I now see a clear picture of what i want and i am on my path to acheive my Goal. I know i will find me ...soon Me who will enjoy every day every hour and every min.

Teenage love

2010-09-03T08:27:00.006-05:00

Both in the same room by Chance
He looks and she looks
They exchange a glance

Both act cool like they didn't look
Butterfly in her stomach and wondering the same in his
He says Hi and her heart skips a beat
Wondering if they were in the same room by chance
He walks ahead with a note/card something in hand
She is star eyed weaving a story in her mind
Tall and dark
pretty and sweet
what a match she dreams
6 footer and she a five something
Would it be odd or a math made in Heaven
While she is dressed as a bride in her wonderland

her six footer shows her a picture of a damsel he would like to wed!

Meaning of Life

2010-09-01T09:45:00.000-05:00

I saw this morning and its so true. Apt for todays thoughts that run in my head. I saw it first when my friend posted it on Facebook ...i so feel like writing about it.
To write whats in it allready...
1.BE HAPPY
2.SHOW UP
3.FOLLOW YOUR HEART
4.FIND A NEW PERSPECTIVE
5.HAVE A SENSE OF WONDER
6 FIND PEOPLE YOU LOVE
7. SET GOALS
8.HELP OTHERS
9. DANCE
10. PAMPER YOURSELF
11.FACE YOUR FEARS
12. GO TO A MUSEUM
13. EXCERCISE
14.LIMIT TELEVISION
15. GET IN TOUCH WITH NATURE
16. LIGHTEN UP
17.GET A GOOD NIGHTS SLEEP
18. READ BOOKS
19. BUY YOURSELF FLOWERS
20. DONT COMPARE YOURSELF WIH OTHERS
21. DONT BEAT YOURSELF
22.BE OPEN TO NEW IDEAS
23. DONT FOCUS ON NEGATIVE THOUGHTS
24.FOCUS ON CREATING WHAT YOU DESIRE
25.MAKE TIME JUST TO HAVE FUN
26.KEEP THE ROMANCE IN YOUR LIFE
27. MAKE A GRATITUDE LIST
28.LOVE YOUR MOTHER EARTH
29. WANT WHAT YOU HAVE
30.BE TRUE TO YOURSELF

A day from the past

2010-08-31T15:11:00.005-05:00

I almost forgot how I spent my days 3 yrs ago when I was at home full time. Today after many
Many days I spent all day doing my fav activities around the house. What more but relaxing.
The laundry, the dirty pots and pans, the unclean floor called out to me....but I did the most important things that made me happy i just was myself and lazed arround and did everything that made me happy. I had a good hour of yoga class
My cup of coffee without interruption. Really you have no idea how long it's been
since I had a cup of coffee without talking or even being interrupted.
I read one of my fav authors
Saw oprah Winfrey show
Cooked and of course attended to my never ending list of chores around my house.

End result inspite of going through my menstrual cycle iam still not grumpy, irritated sad depressed ..none of the symptoms that allways persists:)
I truly believe that when i do things i want and iam happy doing iam a happy person and there is peace in the house and i am making everyone arround me very happy:)

Dance Baby Dance!!

2010-08-27T14:29:00.006-05:00

So in an attempt to find some clases arround my home ...I came across an awesome Bollywood Dance class. Ofcourse with fitness in my mind, i did join it. We performed for the india day celebration in new york and Stamford. The fun and enjoyment in learning and dancing is unexplainable. I love Dancing and this just opened doors for more fun.

I am going to post a clipping from our dance that we persformed in NYC as a part of Independence day celebrations. Pretty priety zinta was the grand Marshal.Apart fom that there were about 600+ audience , lots of food and amazing dance performances. It rained and lil S and N cheered. Lil S danced all the while i danced on the stage:)
I had funand hope you have fun watching it as well:))

Toddler lessons

2010-08-27T14:12:00.004-05:00

This past 10 days Lil S was really sick. The usual clinging got even worse. Thank god i had 2 weeks off...Thank thank GOD!! I am not sure how days started and ended and all i remember is Lil S scream NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
Days came and nights went..i hadn't stepped out of the house until the end of the week and My brother & his wife visited us to celebrate my Lil monster two. I saw light at the end of the tunnel. I had set of 4 hands to take care of him. He got better health wise and N took a deep breath and me smiled like i won a lottery!!. We went out hiked, watched movies, ate out , spoke for hours and it just seemed like the frustration went out of the window. Well he is a toddler what can u expect a sick toddler to do?
The next day again week 2 Monday ...Iam all in good mood but now suddenly Lil Angel S has turned 2 and he showed me what Naughty two meant:)
for one He wanted me to sit in his Car which was physically not possible hence he cried for 30 mins with screams of NOOOOOOOOOOOO WHICH PIERCED MY EARS and iam partially deaf to any kind of NO.
SECONDLY he want to sit on my hips and cook the entire meal just like he would want like cut 5 onions ...he doesn't care how u do it ...but it has to be onions ...if i put him on the floor there it goes NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AND CRY FOR 30 MINS
Then his creative mind struck and Picasso wanted his crayons...the next thing i know my white colored walls have been artistically scribbled with colors of all kinds. Let alone me being upset the next set of crying was NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO because i didn't say "WOW".. ANOTHER 30 MINS. After all that crying and me managing my house hold errands ..the end of the day i had to tell N to take care of him and i went out to RUN...if this is the beginning of terrible two i don't know what else is coming.

Lil S now speaks long sentences. He says Mommy look, i can throw the chair out of the window. Thank god he cant throw me out of the window .....
Was i talking about Baby 2...well the last 10 days the lesson my toddler taught me is Numero Uno get your act together and learn to deal with him let alone the idea of baby two don't even breathe about baby two.
That's Right...poor N is all sad ...but yeah one at a time.

All you Mothers of two and more babies..hats off to you and to your hubbies for everything that you guys have gone through with kids. Do tell me what you think and share your experiences with me:-)

Baby number two?

2010-08-04T14:31:00.004-05:00

Time flies... well it disappeared. My lil baby is growing up fast. He talks a mile a minute. I enjoy everyday with his talks, his stories out of imagination, his tantrums, crying, whining, everything.
Motherhood makes me so happy that i crave for another one...but really when is a good time...i wonder. I talk to many many parents and everyone gives me their opinion and how they manage their finances etc... But really i feel is what works for one never works for another.
I have started to just started to take time off for myself laze arround, go to classes, read books write...well wrote something on this after a year.I wonder if thsi would be the right time. When i meet my other friends who have gotten preg the second time arround and i feel maybe its time for me. The good part is i have never ever envied another woman without kids...their free time...never. I dont even want to be without kids... Iam glad my lil one was a surprise and i hope my next is a surprise too ..there is an mystery, tension in a nice way ..a bit of stomach rolling when you find out you are pregnant and you havent thought about it or well didnt think you would. So iam so looking foward to all the oooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhh, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, howwwwwwwwwww, nowwwwwwwwww, when, Ok, kind of expressions that follow:)

2009 recap

2010-01-22T08:09:00.003-05:00

2009
Pay cut
My lil S started his day care and the series of his sickness.
Travel travel travel
New job
started 2009 at cincinati and ended right there:
lil S turned a year old.
Brother got engaged and we are excited abt our new addition to the family.
Sister is pregnant and it's going to Be a boy
learnt a lot about myself and learnt to deal with people I normally won't put up with.
I learnt time heals most things and most problems comes in relationships with 3rd person interfering and you don't do anything about it.
I feel that I can't be bound by custom traditions and it completely suffocates me.
I alsolearnt that's it's hard for me to forgive people who say mean things about my loved ones.
Diplomacy is not allways bad.
Putting up with mumbling just screws ones own head.
Don't spend money when you don't want to.
So I guess 2009 wasn't all that bad then huh ...it tought me some of the hardestlessons of my life.

Life is Beautiful

2009-09-28T19:06:00.001-05:00

This is how i feel, irrespective of the chaos and the stress. Life is beautiful. Cannot thank god for the wonderful men in my life. Cannot thank enough for everything i have.

Mommy world

2009-08-31T08:18:00.008-05:00

Kids they are the most wonderful thing to happen to anyone. I know the stress that come with them but it's all worth at the end . They teach you life's most valuable lessons that you cannot learn in an university or under no life course teachings. Just as my lil S is heading to be a toddler the urge to have another kid just runs into my head every now and then.
There is always the usual talk bat when to have the next and whats the correct spacing ...I won't discuss that here bcos it works differently for different pol and their background. As for me I am ready to have another one a brother or sister for lil S to play/share/fight/enjoy.
Being the eldest of 3 I know what fun it was growing up with 2siblings and I can't trade anything for the wonderful memories I have growing up with my brother and sister.

Yesterday, after a long time ...i actually told my husband that I really would like to have more kids. That's right not another one..more.SOme times it's scary how I get attached lil S. Sometimes i feel my world just starts with him and ends with him. I am sure all moms feel the same way (attachment). But i wonder if all moms think its scary to be so attached to one Lil kid so much so that you feel your world will end without him or her. I am thinking just like my mom or all others i know who have more than 1 kid they probably share their attachment with their kids and it doesn't feel this intense? Maybe maybe not.
On the flip side I don't want to end up feeling attached to all three of them and feel devastated when its time to let them go .
What do you Moms think about this...do you share the same feeling..i would definitely love to know.

Garbharakshambigai shloka

2009-08-27T11:10:00.003-05:00

Aehyaehi Bhagavan Brahman, Praja-Karthaha Prajaapathae I

Pragrihneeshva Balim Sa-imam, saapathyam raksha Gharbineem II

Ashvinou Dheva Dhevaesow, Pragruhneedhan Balim Dhvimam I

Saapathyaam Garbineem sa-imam sa Rakshatham Poojayaanayaa II

Rudhrasha Aekaadhasha Broktha , Pragrahnanthu Balim Dhvimam I

Yakshamaagam Preethayae Vrutham, Nithyam Rakshandhu Garbineem II

Aadhithyaa Dhvaadhasha Brokthaha, Pragrimneethvam Balim thvimam I

Yashmaakam Thejasaam Vridhya, nithyam rakshatha garbineem II

Vinayaka Ganaadhyaksha, Shiva puthra Mahabala I

Pragrihneeshva Balim sa-imam, Saapathyam raksha garbineem II

Skandha Shanmuga devaesha puthra preethi vivardhana I

Pragrihneeshva Balim sa-imam, Saapathyam raksha garbineem II

Prabhaasaha prabhavashyamaha prathyoushow maaruthoenalaha I

Druvodhara dharashaiva, vasavoeshtow prakeerthithaha I

Pragruhneethvam balim sa-imam, nithyam Rakshatha Garbineem II

Pithurdevi pidhushraeshtae, bahu puthree mahaa bale I

Boodha sreshtae nisha vaasae, nirvrithae shounagapriyae I

Pragrihneeshva Balim sa-imam, Saapathyam raksha garbineem II

Raksha Raksha Mahadeva, Baktha-Anugraha karaga I

Pakshi Vaahana Govindha, Saapathyam raksha Garbineem

Pregnancy and Diet

2009-08-26T20:22:00.008-05:00

Ok so i have been talking to my cousin who found out she is pregnant ..huraahhh..
It reminded me of my first days when i found out i was pregnant. Of course the first days i mean around 8 weeks. Yes i was so laid back or lets say dead sure that i wasn't going to get pregnant that i never even bothered to test:)
So i was on this really awesome diet that i gained exactly how much i had to gain for my weight ie 22 pounds. So here iam writing exactly what i ate so my cousins or fellow blogger can read if they are interested.
Break fast: 1 big glass of water as soon as i wake up,
1 cup oatmeal with i glass of milk(traditional oats
sometimes i had toast(wholewheat bread) eggs in any form

Mid morning snack 10-15 almonds/walnuts /pecans
1 apple
1 cheese stick(low fat)
1 cup pom juice

Lunch 2 cups rice
dal
green veges
egg if i haven't eaten in my breakfast
1 cup yogurt

tea time 1 or 2 apple/ any fruit (nectarine, peaches, pear etc)
1 cheese stick
1 cup milk

dinner 2 wholewheat rotis
salad
veges
1 cup yogurt

1 hour before sleep: 1 cup milk
and lots and lots of strawberries

I was asked to follow a diet where i eat " Protein, fat and Carbs" in every meal breakfast lunch and dinner. I was asked to drink 4 glasses of milk for calcium, avoid
caffeine, chocolate, sugar through out pregnancy, mushrooms and lettuce in the first trimester. I also ate avocados for fat and ate lots of oats for fiber.

I walked 2 miles a day ever day irrespective of of how tired i was. I think if i was able to maintain a good weight it was more bcoz of staying active than anything else.

I tried not to give in to my cravings...but every now and then meaning once in a week i would hog on ice cream especially my last trimester was summer and i couldn't deal with the heat and really needed to keep myself cool.

I also drank 2 liters of water in a day.... of course i almost built a tent outside my bathroom...yeah iam serious i was thinking of just sleeping outside the bathroom as i couldn't deal the constant visit to pee.

That's all i can think of ..for now. I will update this post as i remember . Till then be happy and enjoy your pregnancy. Remember you are pregnant not handicapped , lead a normal life do everything that makes you happy...it was indeed the most wonderful part of my life.

This picture is taken from www.ehow.com

Would you?

2009-08-18T09:12:00.005-05:00

Would you deal with people who are unbelievably diplomatic?
Would you deal with people who believe they can follow a rule and force others to something else?
Would you tolerate someone talking shit about your family in your house?
Would you put a shut to nonsense mumblings day in and day out?
would you still be in touch with hypocrites?
Would you think it is necessary to have a relationship with such unnecessary chaos?

Curious Case of Benjamin Button

2009-07-12T10:20:00.003-05:00

I watched this movie and really was touched.

"Nothing Lasts for long"
There is no time to start anything new...you can do whatever you want whenever you want"

My lesson for today....

enjoy every moment for nothing lasts long:)

Yoga and my wonderful experience!!

2009-07-05T08:17:00.008-05:00

Yesterday my very first time ever in a yoga class. I knew it was about flexibility relaxation etc.. I went in expecting to just laze arround and do some streching excercises. I am taken by surprise. It was hard!! I couldnt stay in some poses for more than 10 sec max.I thought i was so flexible and here i could feel tightness in areas i never knew exisisted.The background music was amazing it took me to a place where i could visualise water falls, hear the rustling noise of the trees, smell the air after first rain fall. Whatever it was it just relaxed me and now iam addicted to Yoga. So much so i dont care what iam doing i have to go attend my yoga class:)

I wish i knew about this when i was really stressed and whne stressors were a part of my life. But neverthless i know now and who ever is experiencing any kind of stress yoga class is your saviour. I swear by it!!

BTW this pic is from healthadavance.com, just love where this woman is sittng...i so want to be in her spot:)

Reading

2009-06-23T08:40:00.006-05:00

Iam reading ...yes finally after 6mns..i have really started to enjoy my reading. I have been meaning to read this book Power of intention by Wayne Dyer. Yesterday was my lucky day. I did step in to the library for myself after a long time. I picked this book and signed up for summer reading club. The idea is to read as many books as possible. if i did finish 3 books then i do get some waffle prizes...wohooooo...not that iam looking foward for the prizes(wink) but yeah some thing to look foward to. i hope reading atleast 5 books i have in my mind:) more about the books in my next blog

Day Care

2009-06-23T08:31:00.004-05:00

Day care, the dilemma to send the baby to a day care is in every parents mind especially working moms.The other choice being a nanny. But how do one really trust another person in your home? At least in a day care there are cameras...but really does that solve the purpose? The only thing that consoles me is my Son will have friends as he is a peoples person. i know it when i see him laugh and enjoy when he sees other kids. What would he learn if he stayed home alone with a nanny. ON the other hand will the day care teachers take good care of him like parents do? Will they actually pick him up when he cries? will they feed him if he refuses once or twice. Will they read to him? With all this questions in my mind i can just be brave and send him to a day care like i would to his school when he is ready.

I am not sure how most working moms feel but Iam most of the time feeling guilty for not able to take care of my son. Either he is been taken care of by grand parents and or he would be put in a day care. whatever the case is , i always feel he is my responsibility and its my duty to give him the best care i can. Saying that what would i do without working. Being a therapist is all i have known all along. I am not sure if i could be a stay home mom. I know i would be frustrated and upset if I am not contributing to my family financially. I have been an independent person and independent in every aspect.

I am on a break now and i think i just have to enjoy every day i have with my son and take things as it comes.Such is life you got to do what you got to do.

Back from hibernation

2009-06-21T08:41:00.004-05:00

Oh how i missed writing. But the last six month was one rollercoaster ride. Although i did learn a lot about myself and people arround me. I learnt that no matter what some relations stay true to their name.

Lil S is now 10 mns..he is growing fast. I would wonder how i would bring him up, but iam surprised i have learnt so much from him. Every single day he makes me realise that certain things are not taken for granted. Sleep is definately something i really treasure. To be able to sleep 8hrs without being interrupted is a dream now.

After having family for so long,things are a bit hectic. But i must admit iam enjoying being busy and being able to spend my time with Lil S.Now he reads with me..although his reading style is a bit different than mine ...i dont understand what he is saying. But i sure know he is reading in his baby language with me.

The first thing he did after he crawled fowards was to pick his books...boy was i thrilled or what!! I am glad he loves books. He has now adapted to play on his own. I was a bit worried after his grandparents left. I wondered how he would react to being on his own. He missed them on the first day and then after he found his friends in his toys and books.
Children adapt so well to a new situation they live in present they forget past and dont worry about future.Thats my new lesson as of now!!

Routine

2009-06-21T07:14:00.008-05:00

After a long time N and myself have supper on time.Untimely food and unhealthy food just had been our routine for a while. I dont know how many times we must have had pizza in a month:). Sometimes we listen to our toungue rather than our mind or body. As per my promise...i have been still able to keep up to one new recipie that interests N. I havent heard him complain a day about not having good food. Iam happy. In this process i have taken a great deal of interest in learning new recipies that are healthy, quick and tasty to eat. Tasty is numero uno on N's list and healthy on mine. So far the food that is being cooked has satisfied both our conditions. So far so good.

Lil S goes to the day care now.Its hard to leave him for long hours at the day care. I tell myself that it gives him an oppurtunity to meet other kids and play and i get to work a lil bit. In the evenings when all three of us sit to eat supper we feel like a family. Its better this way than stay home,get frustrated and exhausted. Hence hats off to all stay home moms who do what they do.Iam noone to say whats right and whats wrong but this situation works for us and i am at peace with it.

Sleepless nights are still a part of our lives and yes both of us no longer cry or complain about it...we enjoy. Yes thats right we enjoy playing in the middle of the night with S or clean his poop or even just rock him to sleep.
Being a parent is wonderful, you have to experience to know what it is. Rest is all words and only words.

2009-06-21T07:08:00.010-05:00

As i walk though the forrest
As i see big small and leaning trees
My mind sings as my heart dances
The beautiful lake and ducks swimming
The lil kids camping and fishing.
The winds blowing a sweet whistle,
Make me want to dance as it drizzles.
Like a bird that flies from a cage
Like a waterfall that gushes from top of a mountain
Like a free fall of a sky diver
My heart feels free
With every breath of fresh air
The silence in my nest
is a song of a nightingale
How i love this feeling
for it tastes as sweet as honey

Friends

2009-01-30T17:03:00.004-05:00

Its been a while when i have been thinking about my friends in general. I have a big list of friends i do keep in touch. Of late because of series of events i have been thinking of just clearing off my list of friends. Sometimes its good to review and see who your true friends are. Its been a while and i have been putting up with some nonsense...either have so call friends say things to you which is not very nice. How can someone insult you in public when they tell you that you are their good friend? So i do have a few that are definitely coming of my list. One that is jealous of how my new born looks, one that out rightly tells me how old i look,one that thinks being a friend is baby sitting me !! Ridiculous. It been tough to ignore them and not listen to their problems. But like one of my close friends tell me are they worth your time? i definitely think no.
After having S i definitely have a different perspective to life. I always feel that there is very little time for my family and very little time to spend with my little one. In all this the last thing i would like to do is waste my time on useless people who add no value to my life but to belittle me on every instance.

Maybe not my new years resolution , but my new resolution in my life to have friends who are worth my time!!

Good Bye 2008!!

2009-01-03T16:53:00.004-05:00

I was just thinking how my 2008 was and can i tell you, it had some awesome things in store for me.
From being Pregnant to starting my new job in NYC, to trips arranged by N, my surprise baby shower which had all my family members , to arrival of little S 25 days early. Everything was one super surprise over another.The year ended very fast as i celebrated the new year's eve with parents,siblings and family after a long long time!!!

Joys Of Motherhood

2008-10-05T08:39:00.003-05:00

Children should come with an instruction Manual..... hahhaha this what a friend told me when she was having trouble with her newborn Ria. That line just stuck in my head. Seriously life would have been so much more easier to know why your kid is crying...
Why are you crying? Let me change your diaper, feed you, rock you, try to put you to bed.Do you have to burp? Nothing works you still scream!!! Are you colicy, gassy or plain fussy and decided to give your mom a hard time while your dad snores away to glory?
I must admit ocassionaly dad gets up half asleep and murmurs if i need help and passes out till the alarm rings the next morning!!! Joys of motherhood, will not exchange it for anything...but i take back my words of having 4 kids. I am done people, one is enough for me!!!

My Blue Eyed Boy!!!

2008-09-30T10:19:00.003-05:00

He lays in my arms after the traumatic delivery. Tears roll down from my cheeks from pain of birth and from joy of seeing a new born...Emotions know which direction to take...cry from pain or joy or love. The baby stops crying and looks and his eyes blue and with wonder where he is .He turns to look at his dad, as the dad bends to see his son...he kisses him on his cheek. The proud dad overwhelmed with joy says he has Blue eyes.

Chubby Cheeks
Dimple chin
Rosy lips
Teeth within
Eyes are blue Lovely too
Mommys pet is that you:)

2008-09-30T10:11:00.002-05:00

Mom waiting outside the elevator.
Grandmom says. "That was a long walk. Hope the baby wasn't too disturbed.
Mom says: He enjoyed the walk mom...dont worry!!
Three kids waiting for the elevator: Wow such a cute baby...awwwww how old is he?
Mom: 1 month...
Kid1: hey look baby is opening his/her eyes
Mom : boy, his name is Sushen!!
Kid2: He has blue eyes!!!
Kid 3: Is he your kid?
Mom annoyed and says: Yes OFCOURSE
Kid 2 : where did he get the blue eyes from??
Mom says: From my mom his grand mom...
Grand Mom : flutters her eyes...
Kid3: wow... He is the cutest i have seen.

fresh air!!!

2008-08-31T21:39:00.002-05:00

After 12 days,i got out of my home...and what a relief to be out and about. fresh air, green leaves....watching people walk and talk...life is wonderful and iam glad to be able to go out get some fresh air!!!

My first thought when i saw you....

2008-08-30T18:46:00.007-05:00

Tears stopped to my lips and streched to smile,
As i see you calling me and kissing your dad.
Overwhelming emotions flow and stand still as i hold you.
You hold the strings to my emotions,
your laugh my laugh your tears mine...
love has a new meaning ,
It means nothing more now than Sushen !!!

The little one arrives

2008-08-24T18:14:00.003-05:00

My little one decided to see me 25 days early. It was a pleasant surprise:) We both struggled to meet eachother now we cant think of being seperate:)
God's miracle is beautiful and unexplainable.

2008-08-13T22:28:00.006-05:00

To see you is like
Anticipating the waves in the sea
To miss your movements in my belly
Is like sky turning dark after sunset

Some weird people....

2008-08-12T20:05:00.002-05:00

Why do some people act like they love something in front of their partners and actually hate doing it?

Why do some people sarcastically comment on something that they do too?

Why do people think how they think is perfect and can' t accept anyother person with another path of thinking.

I just dont understand these guys.... I just feel like laughing when they say some really stupid things and think others who do things a bit differently are stupids!!!
God save them!!!

Thought for the day!!!

2008-08-11T20:23:00.002-05:00

"You are not what you think you are;but what you think,you are."
Norman Vincent Peale.

This means you will be happy if you think happy thoughts, you will be sad if you have miserable thoughts. from the book "How to stop worrying & start living" by Dale Carnegie, page 341.

A day in roaches clinic!!!

2008-08-11T08:31:00.004-05:00

Like anyother time i was covering a clinic for a week. The clinic placed in one of the dirtiest places in NewYork...I didnt expect anything better inside as well. To my shock a clinic that treats patients is expected to have the floors cleaned, all i see huge cockroaches dead. Yuck!!! Me in my middle of pregnancy sensitive to everything smell place etc was unable to deal with the sight. The only thing that went into my head was another 12 hours to go ...god save me!!

The chiropracter also the clinic partner shows me my desk . the desk is filled with cockroach eggs..eiyuuuuuuuuuuu....there goes another flash in my head 12 more hours god save me.I start to think ok...if did concentrate on my work i may forget about all the stuff thats arround me. I start to inspect the machines and then look arround to see that the towels that are used on the patients have not been washed for ages....yuck yuck...god save my patients!!!

I go back to my desk and start cleaning the desk with alcohol wipes. I look arround and find a very interesting book on pediatrics and i pick it up and there goes wooooooooooosh a cockroach flying high....i jump and scream...the cockroach probably had the most entertaining time he did bring his whole family ..the next thing i see there are 6 of them on my desk.

The chiropracter who had just explained how clean his practise was just turn arround and said cocroaches were common in that part of the city!! Right...i think that didnt come with the deal.....i call my employer to tell him i cannot work in this clinic and guess what he doesnt pick up the phone ,surprise surprise.

After my long day of work... i call my employer frantically to tell him how impossible it was for me to have my lunch and dinner in that setting ...and food was important as i was in my 2nd trimester and need to eat so very often. The only thing i hear from him is "signal is weak i cant hear you". Damm...i had to go back to that setting the next day too....I know it was horrible. But this time i bring my own alcohol swipes, gel to clean, and guess what...toilet paper yeah there wasnt toilet paper and i had to use the restroom like zillion times thanks to my pregnancy...the previous day i ran to the nearest store to buy ..but now i came equipped. The only thing i culdnt do was to change the towels that was used on the patients. Another 12 hours went by treating patients and attacking roaches.

Thats it I had it. I left a voice message on my employer's cell and slept in the next day:)

Vallaikapu or Bangle Cermony

2008-07-27T10:14:00.004-05:00

I had my traditional baby shower or vallaikapu on Sunday.
Vallai=round as a bangle
Kapu= protection

The ritual is normally done in the 7 month. The parents of the "mom to be" usually perform this cermony.The "mom to be" wears a black saree probably the only time she is allowed to wear a black saree on an auspicious occasion. The color black is mostly considered to take away all evil eyes laid on the pregnant woman!!!
The woman that come to the ocassion give bangles to the mom to be symbolising that she is protected. Even number of bangles are worn in one hand and odd number in the other. Gold and silver bangles are also given to the "mom to be".

The "mom to be" is adorned with gifts and presents and sent away to her mothers house for the delivery . It is considered that making the mother happy transfers the happiness to the baby as the emotional development is considered to take place arround this time.

To me black is sexy, i loved that i could wear black on some ocassion with no older ladies giving me a stare...hehehe. The highlight of the cermony was the surprise get together in a hotel nearby. The food was awesome and it was definately a great surprise and just made me feel so special. Thanks N you are too sweet. I may not say this many times as i think in my head...but i sure did thank him for making it so big an ocassion and so special. All my family and very close friends were there and i just loved the fact i could spend my time with my family.

Ten Commandments for new Mothers!!

2008-06-26T17:18:00.007-05:00

I saw this in my OBG gynec office . I couldnt stop laughing:) I did change some wordings ...hope you enjoy this as much as i do:)

Ten Commandments for new Mothers

1.Thou shall not cook, clean house, do laundry or entertain.

2.Thou shall be given a doula.

3.Thou shall remain clothes in thy night gown and sit in thy rocking chair as long as thou pleaseth.

4.Thou shall honor thy husband with his share of household chores.

5.Thou shall not have bad advices about over weight or related topics.

6.Thou shalt take long walks in green pastures, eat good food and drink enough water.

7.Thou shal not have strange and unhelpful visitors in thy home.

8.Thou shalt groom thy hair and adorn thy body with attractive robes.

9.Thou shalt not have prophets of bad baby advice in thy company.

10 Thou shalt sleep when the baby sleeps.

Random aunty talks!!!

2008-06-22T21:11:00.001-05:00

Two sentences i hate to hear these days
1. Are you eating well?
2. what did you eat?
Please give me a break people.... i will eat when iam hungry and trust me its nutritious!!!

Time to blog!!!

2008-06-18T20:37:00.006-05:00

Its 9.30 pm and am so sleepy. Pregnancy, work and travel takes most of my life leaving me to do nothing. I want to blog about everything i feel and experience and just don't find time. How sad!! Blogging my fav pass time takes a set back. There are 3 books waiting in my shelf to be read and to be returned to the library.
Life for me is moving fast like a tornado. It was just yesterday it seems that i found out am going to be a mommy...and here am 28 weeks into it.
Let me tell you when i do get engrossed with materialistic things the Lil movements of my baby, makes me realise the miracle taking place in my womb. Its amazing to feel your own baby moving and kicking.Words cant describe what i feel ..it has to be experienced and i thank god for being a woman to understand that!!
Apart from this excitement, we moved to a new apartment with a big balcony. I cant wait to buy a hammock and read some of my books while they wait anxiously in my shelf. The weather is gorgeous these days except for few pours now and then. Even before i forget there was a heat wave last week with the temperature rising to 108f. The worst feeling to be with working with kids in a school with no AC and fan. Yes you heard it right...no AC OR FAN!!!I was shocked that in NYC you could have schools that did not provide AC or fans to the kids . I was stuck in one such school and pregnancy didn't help either. I probably drank about 5litres of water one day ...of course where was i most of the time ...in the bathroom.
Yeah bathroom seems to be my favourite spot these days , i am thinking maybe i should just live there and make it my bedroom:)I guess like burping, farting, constipation,fatigue, exhaustion and bloating, Peeing frequently is an incentive of being pregnant:).I would like to add more but time to sleep and more about my pregnancy in my next.Finally...i am excited to blog back:)

Thinking of you!!

2008-04-20T21:24:00.001-05:00

how are you?
swimming in my womb
dreaming about me?
what do you do ?
I wonder every day and night!!!

Ah !! Back to my world!

2008-04-04T14:53:00.002-05:00

It has been long since i even looked back at my blogworld....my world where i can be what i want write what i feel. Life is amazing it takes such sharp turns you never know what you get arround every corner!! The last time i was on this I was bored being home, watched Tv , excercised, and read books to pass time and still didnt know what to do with my time. Now iam working full time and pregnant!! Yes pregnant...and i dont find time for myself.
I love the working bit and being pregnant...thats another topic altogether.
I love travelling ...but the commute to work is too long AHHHHHHHH.The good part is the scenery is beautiful and i can listen to my fav music.

Did i tell you how beautiful its to be pregnant . Yes its an amazing feeling to know that a part of you is growing inside you. Listening to you, playing arround and eating every bit that you eat
:)

Its amazing ...i tell you ...everything is going well in my life how is it in yours?
Will be back with more posts ...hopefully if i feel like doing anything but sleeping:)

Hooked To MuSiC

2007-10-05T12:57:00.000-05:00

I am addicted to SaReGaMaPa Show on the indain channel. Its becomes a routine to watch it every friday and staurday. The singers are excellent and its so relaxing to hear each one of them. What is really sad about the show is the drama of the Judges. Especially Mr. Himmesh Reshamiya... what a drama queen!!! I cant believe what nonsense he speaks on this talent show. From promoting false love stories(more of infatuation)to putting the contestants down only to promote his singer.

Irrespective of what nonsense he does on the show, the top 3 contestants are excellent and all three of them deserve to win. I love this show except the blah blah that comes out from Mr. Himmesh Reshamiya. God!! someone should tell him to shut up...its irritating for sure.

The top 3 contestants are
Raja Hassan, Amanat Ali and Aneek Dhar

Here is the site for you to check their performances.

www.saregamapashow.com
Enjoy:)

Fictional Fragment : Vijji and magie noodles

2007-08-29T17:41:00.000-05:00

It was summer vacation, Vijji,Vali and Vichu were home.One afternoon little Vijji tired and hungry from playing went to her pati(grand mother)to feed her some food.Pati said it was 4 pm and and there is no more lunch left. She offered Vijji a drink. Vijji was hungry and she wanted to eat something tasty and spicy. Her grand mom tried offering Vijji different things from the kitchen,Vijji stayed stubborn and wanted grandma to make her something different and delicious.Vijji's dad who heard all this gave her some money to buy his favorite snack from a nearby shop. Vijji nodded no.Valli and Vichu tagged along and were hungry too.Being the eldest Vijji had no alternative but to listen to her Dad. Vali and Vichu who were busy climbing the terrace heard this and ran away. They didn't want to walk all the way to the shop with Vijji.

Vijji went running to the nearby shop. An Old man behind the store looked at Vijji and said, 'are you here for moong dal'. Vijji and her sister often came to buy 'moong dal'on friday afternoon for their father as it was his favorite snack. Vijji nodded yes. The shop keeper said "sorry no moong dal today would you like to try some Maggie noodles?". Vijji wondered what Maggie was?? He said its noodles and the most tasty thing he ever had . His wife an old lady popped out from nowhere and said "yes very nice... buy it". Vijji was short of cash but Store keeper said he would pick it up from his mom on her way back home from work.

Vijji was worried what her dad would say.But she was convinced that Maggie is the new thing and she was going to be famous when she talks about it to her friends in school.She reached home and told him about this amazing snack called Maggie noodles and how tasty it was. She told him that all her friends had tasted it and she was the only one left to eat it. Her dad laughed and said, 'give it to pati'.
Vijji ran up and asked her pati to make it for her. she called Vali and Vichu to tell them about the noodles. She was proud when she explained how tasty it was. Vichu and Vali were keen to have it .

Pati saw the packet and asked Vijji to read her the instructions. Vijji helped her pati to cook them for her. Her pati said 'why do these look like worms to me. Are you sure its not worms'? Vichu and Valli looked with a disgusting face ,as though Vijji had committed the most biggest crime in the world. Vijji was upset but she put her chin up and said It was the way it was made and tasted like nothing they have tasted before. Pati was worried that she had cooked worms in her kitchen.She looked at the idols of god asked them to forgive her for killing all those worms and cooking them for the kids.

Vichu and Vali tell Vijji that they were with pati and wouldn't eat those worms. Vijji wanted to cry . But she took those noodles and slipped them into her mouth and sucked them in. She was smiling. She said it was the most amazing thing she had eaten. She offered it to her dad who said it was really good.
Vichu and Valli now changed their minds and asked if they could have some.While they sat to eat Maggie noodles, Vijji had a beam on her face like she had invented noodles. Both Vichu and Vali loved Maggie . Vijji was happy she bought home Maggie noodles home.

Pilates

2007-07-31T15:45:00.001-05:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mmek7iASeCI&eurl=http%3A%2F%2Fwww%2Eorkut%2Ecom%2FFavoriteVideos%2Easpx%3Fuid%3D16808621238594387119

Pilates has been one of my favourite ways of exercising. Few years back i was able to do this 10 min video with ease. Of course at that time I was in a better shape.Now that i have started exercising i have started pilates again. Trust me this work out is crazy. I finish 5 mins of it and am crying out loud for help. Am definitely improving, but not yet there.For all those who want to get slim, fit or just want to know what pilates is all about,check this out.

Oprah is helping me lose weight!!!

2007-07-26T18:42:00.000-05:00

Yes, in a way. Ever since i moved to US ,I haven't bought a T.V.Living abroad for almost 7 years and stuck to Oprah Winfrey's show. Am almost addicted. My only way to watch her is at the gym. Yes!! while i watch Oprah Winfrey's show I run on my treadmill(30 minutes) Do elliptical (30 minutes) The show is done in an hours time ...I then move on to stretch and do some abdominal. I have been at it for almost a month. I weighed myself and yes Am 7 pounds lighter. So thanks Oprah, you made me lose weight:)

Fiction fragment: Pooja's First Date

2007-07-16T16:57:00.000-05:00

Newly wed Pooja waits for her husband to be back from work. Subbu,promised to take her to a place that sold the best biryani ever. Pooja was excited as it was her first time out to a restaurant with Subbu after her wedding. She wanted to look her gorgeous self. She applied her favourite Mac eyeshadow and lipstick which she purchased while she lived abroad. She wore a sleeveless white kurta on her skinny Levis jeans. She wanted to show off her red bag and her red Italian shoes. She then waited patiently in the balcony looking at the road below for a black bike to approach her apartment.

Pooja was restless, excited and nervous . She looked at herself many times in the mirror adjusting her curly locks. She remembered quickly that she forgot to wear her favorite perfume from La Occitane. She looked through her closet and sprayed a bit on her clothes and a little on her hair . She knew Subbu would like the smell.

The door bell rang, Pooja opened the door only to find the laundry woman return her clothes. She picks all her clothes and pays her the amount due. The laundry woman says "why aren't you wearing jasmine flowers, don't leave your hair open it isn't good sign". Pooja frowns and looks at her with a 'mind your business' face expression. She runs to the bedroom looks at the mirror, adjusting her eye shadow and make up again.

Subbu arrives with hair all ruffled, smelling of petrol and face painted with dirt from the pollution. Pooja asks him to freshen up. Pooja is anxious to know where he was taking her. She starts to think of all the restaurants he had shown her the previous week. She wondered where the restaurant was as they lived in the outskirts of the city.She calms herself and gets all excited about going to a jazzy restaurant.

Subbu said he was so hungry and couldn't wait to go to this restaurant. He looked at Pooja and said she looked Hot !! They sit on their favourite bike and Subbu drives for almost 45 mins. Pooja's thoughts take her to all 5 star restaurants she knew in the city. He stops his bike and Pooja looks around and she sees no restaurant, Subbu says"let me get some cash from ATM'. Pooja is now restless, Subbu parks his bike and runs into a road side cafeteria. He smiles and tells her you get best biryani here!!.

The food arrives and Pooja and Subbu sit on a rock watching the sea. She smiles at Subbu and tells him the Biryani was indeed the best one she ever had.

5 things in my to do list this summer

2007-07-16T16:41:00.000-05:00

1. learn to swim
2. learn to drive
3. Sky dive
4. get back to dancing
5. get back to painting
6. Finish the long list of books i have piled up to read.
If you have finished laughing, yes I want to do all this , this summer. I want to write this on my post to remind me of things i want to do . This is one way to be at it. By the end of summer please ask me how much i have accomplished:-)

'Watch H1b hires' FBI tells American Firms!!

2007-07-16T13:01:00.000-05:00

Interesting....
http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/Watch_those_H1-B_hires_FBI_tells_American_firms/articleshow/2207928.cms

2007-07-15T23:41:00.000-05:00

An ode to my fear
that rests in my mind
lest i utter and deluge my life

An ode to my thought
thats taravels every direction
lest i utter and cause havoc

An ode to your support
A power that lets me stay positive
lest i lose and i am erased

An ode to your love
I see through the storm
a bright sunny day
which was clouded
by my fear and my thoughts.

Lazy Sunday

2007-07-14T17:38:00.000-05:00

I lay on the grass
A sunday afternoon
Basking the sun
While the kids play in the park
The mothers chatter

Music of the squirrels
colours of the butterfly
treat my soul
As i kiss the winds
that sweep my hair

Lazing on the grass
I yen for another sunday afternoon
as the winds breeze harder
and the rain washes me away

Rendezvous

2007-07-12T15:14:00.000-05:00

As we approaced 'ohri' as a pair,
language of silence filled the air
Across the table we sat,
Looking at the water fall ahead.

Intention to break the ice
Brought my glance to your gaze.
My heart skipped a beat
when your words,
brought my ears a treat.

Joys of my mind tickled to lips
when i said yes
for a journey
that together we began to cherish.

Fond memories of our rendezvous
flashes in front of me
As we sit across the table
sipping our tea

Global warming!!

2007-07-12T15:11:00.000-05:00

Check this http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/wales/mid/6288012.stm

Allergic Reaction

2007-07-12T14:38:00.000-05:00

Yesterday N came back from office looking all red and swollen. He had mentioned over the phone to me few hrs back that he has some kind of allergy. I guessed it was something he ate from the office Canteen. I asked him if he was breathing fine and if there was any problems swallowing. He said everything was fine except the sudden appearance of rashes and itching. I asked him to take an antihistamine tablet .

After he got back home , poor N was unable to move as any movement caused this unstoppable urge to itch. I acted cool like he looked OK. But seriously i haven't seen his face getting swollen so bad. i was feeling sorry for him. But i am glad he didn't have any symptoms of anaphylactic shock.

I dont want to describe what it is, just a brief overview. This happens when a person ingests/injects/inhales or skin contact of any allergen. All i would say is the best thing to do is have an antihistamine tablet, if the symptoms get worse then call the paramedics immediately, as its life threatening. For more information please read here.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anaphylaxis

N is at home today and his itching gone down drastically ....i do recognise my husband now finally. Thank god!! He is still drowsy with the antihistamine dose and is sleeping like a baby:)

Chennai in Connecticut!!!

2007-07-11T17:23:00.000-05:00

When the temp is like 33degrees centigrade with 87% humidity you know summer is here.
You know summer is here when u shower twice and you look like you have had a work out.
You know summer is definately here when your curly hair stands up to say 'hello ' to every one.
Definately summer has brought back my memories of Chennai in Connecticut.

Thank God Iam here and i can wear what i feel without strangers giving me advices about how i need to dress in summer.

p.s: I was lectured by a lady in the bus stop in Chennai when i wore capris and a full sleeve shirt on a sunny summer day.oH ya !! She said i shouldnt wear something like this without a dhupatta( scarf)!!! The temp was just 40 degrees .
Did i feel bad?
Yes for taking the bus and just getting roasted with the temp and the lady not giving up through out the journey!!.

2007-07-06T13:00:00.000-05:00

I have been tied up with lots of things and hence the hiatus. See you all soon with more posts !!!

Indian Idol(3)

2007-06-14T15:24:00.000-05:00

I didnt know that there was something called indian idol that existed untill my friend mentioned it to me. My friend from UK called me one day to tell how excited she was as her sister was one of the contestants for indian idol. She wasnt sucessful, but ofcourse it got me hook to it.
My Favourites so far have been 1. Meiyeng chang, 2. Emon chatterjie 3. charu 4.joly das
I will paste the link here for u to watch and enjoy!!

http://www.apnicommunity.com/indian-idol-3/13271-indian-idol-3-episode-16-9th-june-07-a.html

I Heart New York

2007-06-11T08:47:00.000-05:00

Another day trip to New York and another set of beautiful memories. Yesterday N and myself with 3 other friends left to NYC.We planned to do a lot of things , but we couldn't stop ourselves just walking around the streets of Manhattan. The tall buildings that no matter how much we tried to look up still couldn't see the top floor, as the sun was just right on top of our heads.
Ground zero, where once the WTC stood tall. Just being there and seeing that place just bought tears in our eyes. What would have been the fate of all those people on that day? I kept thinking to myself.

We clicked few pictures and moved on from ground zero to the other streets...watching lots of travelers from various parts of the world walking down the street . Its a wonderful exercise to just sit and watch different people walking and talking. While others were busy clicking pictures, to me watching them people walk, talk and listening to the ringing bells from different churches was just plain wonderful. We headed to wall street and New york stock exchange. Saw the trump building. Although public veiwing of the NYSE is prohibitted after terrorist attacks in year 2001, the architectural beauty of the building was worth enjoying.

We then decided to go see the Statue of liberty. Headed towards battery park, bought tickets and stood in the long line to get on to the boat that would take us to the island.The ticket costed us $11.50 per adult for a round trip. There is also a monumnet pass which we could have got free of cost if we arrived at the ticket counter by morning 9am. This monument pass gives you access into the statue of liberty. Because we were late ...we couldnt actually get to see this.

While we stood in the line waiting to get the security check we saw a man singing with his guitar. His hair colored just like his t shirt in rainbow colors , singing about different people. He said something really funny... he asked a english man if he had any problems if the royal family had a black person amongst them. the english man said "no" ofcourse. The singer said then iam coming to england next summer:) he definately was talented, he attracted everyones attention and in turn did earn a lot of money too. He attracted the chinese visitors by singing a song in chinese language, the Australians by singing about their land, he got 2 english kids look at a canadian girl while he sang a love song. It was all done in good spirit, nobody was offended. He went on asking others what they thought of being married to a black woman and many ofcourse said they wouldnt mind. He didnt stop, he said 'my sister is looking can i hook u up'. LOL!! It was just way too funny.

We then went through the security check and sat on this huge boat.

The boat took us to the Island where Statue of liberty stood tall. Apparently she was made all in copper and because of oxidation(chemical change due to oxygen present in air) It turns out to be green in colour. The statue of liberty was given to the americans by the french as a symbol of friendship. It was all put together on July 1886. Apparently 300 pieces of copper packed in 214 crates was transported to america by the french in a ship called 'Isere'. This ship was allmost about to sink, but reached safely as she stands up tall symbolizing freedom and democracy.

We roamed the island for good 2 hrs. Got something to eat there. Trust me if you ever go to the island , get your own food as the food there is1. unhealthy(french fries and everything else fried)2. aweful and 3. expensive. We bought grilled chicken sandwich ...thinking that we are going to be a bit health conscious, trust me the chicken was burnt , i felt i was eating half charcoal and some dry stuff called chicken . Not good, i didnt waste anything ..i fed them to the pigeons. No wonder the pigeons were so big and fat!!!

We then rushed to get to the ferry that was to arrive in any time. Not only did we get the last ferry back but we also got a real cool spot from where the pictures come out amazing.After the wonderful journey back to battery park , N and myself got a portrait sketched from a chinese man. He did a good job!!Not only did the sketch resembled us but we also looked 15 years younger. We were both happy.What if we didn't meet as teenagers , we now have a picture that shows how we would have looked as teenagers.

Brooklyn bridge was our next stop. We parked our vehicle and started walking,and ofcourse the little shops,the coffee shops, restaurants caught our attention and we quite got lost in them . The next thing we know is brooklyn bridge was a mile and half away.We walked back to our car and headed to lexignton ave to eat our famous curry. After much contemplation as to which restaurant we want to pick...we decided to go into masala bollywood. The restaurant had a good feel to it. There were bollywood star pictures everywhere,including the rest rooms!!.
The food though i must say was not upto the mark except for mango lassi which my friends said tasted good.

It was way past 10pm and as we left NYC we saw the mad rush at times square. We said good bye to big apple with hope in our hearts that we are going to be back soon.

Phew what a day!!

Dream

2007-06-08T23:49:00.000-05:00

I dream of you
lips as pink as rose
eyes as beautiful as a deer.
Face thats round as a moon
skin like petals to touch

I dream of you
your smile a rainbow in my planet
Your laugh rain to my desert

like a stream gushing to
quench a gardens thirst
your hug brings all peace and
meaning to my lifes worth

i dream of you
Playing in my backyard
running and causing havoc
Eating all that you reach
and sleeping anywhere you can

I dream of your soft words
That has no meaning
but i await to hear
you babble
like a poem i will cherish
every word i will treasure

I dream of you
every day, every night.

Friday...message

2007-06-08T12:59:00.001-05:00

SUHASINI --

[noun]:

A person who is a master of making ravioli

Really..i should learn to make one now;-)

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Story of my state id...

2007-05-24T17:06:00.000-05:00

In the US you always need to carry some form of ID.The state ID has your date of birth and basically shows that you are a legal resident of America. I was in the office 4 times already and every time i was short of some document or the other. Today i was asked to bring a letter stating that i was on a dependent visa hence i would not be issued a ssn . If you live in US, it is very important to have a social security number(ssn) . As a dependent you don't get a ssn number. This is what i was told when i went to their office in dec2006. It was understood that without ssn you cant have a credit card, Bank account and u cannot work.
I ran to the ssn office waited there for a good 1 hour. The officer said 'who says you cant get a ssn ?' I reply 'sir, my friend was here yesterday she didn't get one'. lam afraid the laws have changed, and you get one !! In my head i am going ...did the law change overnight?? The officer tells me well i am not sure why the computer denied your friend but it lets me give you a ssn ". I think how can a computer decide...oh well I must be the lucky one. The letter states that the ssn will arrive by mail in 2 weeks and i would not be able to use it for work. Oh well, at least i can open my own bank account and have my own credit card:).
I now head to the DMV office to get my state id. I stand in the line for about 45 mins all happy , finally i have all the paperwork. The lady in the counter reads my letter and says" you have to wait till you get your ssn number dear". Iam like you are kidding me!! She says i cant register your name on my computer without your ssn. Come back with your ssn and i will issue a state ID. I beg literally ...because of my trip in two days and i didnt want to carry my passport . But yes, i was made to go back . So the story of my state id goes on....to continue. I wonder what the computer will decide by the time iam in the office the next visit!!

Mushroom Recipie:)

2007-05-23T20:12:00.000-05:00

I made this a few days ago and it turned out pretty yummy.....
try and let me know how you like it

Take big mushrooms(10-12)
wash and cut them in slices.
Then in a pan add olive oil, put some cumin seeds, green chillies slit(1-2 acc to your taste)
Grate one big onion in this pan.
Fry it till it turns translucent.
Add ginger and garlic crushed about 1 tea spoon.
Fry the mixture till gets gloden brown.
Now add 1 tea spoon kasuri methi, 1/2 teaspoon tumeric powder.
Mix and add 2-3 grated tomatoes.
Add salt and 1/2 tea spoon sugar.
Fry the ingridients till tomatoes get cooked well.
Now add sliced Mushrooms and simmer the flame .
Once mushrooms get cooked add 1/2 cup milk.
You can add more or less milk to make more or less gravy. Taste and see if the salt is according to your taste. Add chopped coriander and serve.

This is a good side dish with Roti/paratha/Naan Bread

2007-05-23T17:04:00.000-05:00

Test failed ...after i tried to assemble the futon I bought from IKEA... lol
I had no patience trying to hit endless screws only to find that something else was either loose or just not right. Till now every thing i have bought from IKEA was perfect ...but this experience was something else....But task accomplished i got both my dinning table and my futon ready....ofcourse i yelled and screamed at my futon several times for testing my patience...lol

Change

2007-05-22T12:52:00.001-05:00

LikeThe sky turns blue to purple
like the weather from spring to fall
like plants grow to trees tall.
Change is the only thing constant.

From a child to woman i grow
My acquaintance and frineds i adore
Some stay same some try to differ.

Change is the only thing constant

Emotions changes

sometimes low and sometimes high

passions changes

love to lust

what remains constant

is change

Test

2007-05-22T12:09:00.001-05:00

I have been thinking to change ...for quite sometime.Changing is so difficult.
So heres my test.....
I am not going to let anything/anyone annoy me.
Anything that irritates me or pushes my buttons ...i am going to laugh out loudly and smile away.It may annoy people around me but I want to see how this is going to change me.
Do i stay positive or will i succumb to screaming and shouting and getting upset.
I will write my experiences in my next blog....

Friday's feast

2007-05-18T11:00:00.000-05:00

http://www.fridaysfeast.com/
Friday's Feast is a meme of five questions cooked up by the chef each and every week.
Heres mine... Enjoy!!!
Appetizer
List 3 emotions you experienced this week.
Happiness[ I found out that i might be able to work in this country if i did find some not for profit organizations]
Confusion[ Planning our Maine trip has put me into this roller coaster ride of where to go, what to do and where to stay. Same questions and different answers each time]
Fear [of becoming this girl who is stuck in the kitchen all her life...with only one question on her head...what do i cook for the next meal?]

Soup
Name a car you’d love to have.
Lexus SUV

Salad
Describe your typical morning routine.
I get up to my husbands bathroom singing...lol.. make my coffee, turn on the computer. Get my husbands lunch ready, Say bye to him.
Eat my cereal , listen to my music... take a shower and read the news paper.
Note : its not this order most time i may skip somethings sometimes.

Main Course
Hled anyone Famave you ever emailed someone famous? If so, who, and what did you say to them? Did they reply?
Hmm...never emailed anyone ...maybe i should do that....

Dessert
Do you listen to podcasts? If so, which ones?
Nope , I don't ...i used to when i was in UK...about East enders. I miss the music though.

Tulip Festival

2007-05-15T10:26:00.000-05:00

How would you like to be sitting amongst tulips on a nice sunny Day? Thats exactly what i did on Sunday . Off to tulip garden festival in Washington park Albany. It wasn't anything like tulips in Amsterdam ....but this view was very pleasing and refreshing. Colors from white, red, shades of pink, purple violet, mauve yellow and what not.
I may not be lucky like Aishwariya Rai to have a tulip named after me in Amsterdam ...but i am lucky to have just spent the whole day admiring them . Take a look and enjoy the pictures.

Clouds!!

2007-05-10T15:52:00.002-05:00

Are you crying up above
when i see u clouds gather
Are you crying , when you pour
Are you moaning for the fight down below?

Are you mad when you thunder
You ask why innocent people die
is this place safe to abide
Death follows not by turn but by deed u say
You pour you shower you stop us from all bad deed we endevour
What you see man doesnt see
You teach us lessons in the way you live

How Rare Is Your Personality

2007-05-07T13:57:00.000-05:00

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ISFP)

Your personality type is caring, peaceful, artistic, and calm.

Only about 7% of all people have your personality, including 8% of all women and 6% of all men
You are Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Black Book

2007-05-06T14:27:00.000-05:00

I went to see this movie on Friday.
I don't do film reviews, But this movie really touched me. So here goes the story...This movie is set in Holland in the year 1944. The time of II world war and when the Jews were captured and sent to death camps of the Nazis. Its a story of Rachel Stein a rich Jew who tries to escape from the occupied land to the liberated land and loses her family in the due course. She then changes her name from Rachel stein to Ellis DeVries and colors her hair blond to join the resistance team to avenge the death of her family. In this process she falls in love with a Nazi officer and falls into a spiderweb of events that lead the dutch to believe that she is a traitor. She then finds a black book with one of the members of resistance, which leads to the real culprit.

A emotional , and very touching movie ...It does take you back to the time during II world war, showing closely how the Jews struggle for existence.
Filed with suspense& high intense drama, it is a must watch movie.I highly recommend it:)

Bright and sunny outside today!!

2007-05-06T11:14:00.000-05:00

Went out for a stroll,
this is how it looks outside my apartment:-)

Back From phoenix!!!

2007-05-01T23:23:00.001-05:00

I am back and with a great sun tan:-). Wohooo...what a trip!!! I arrived on monday last at about 10 pm at phoenix airport. Drove to my cousins place. He lives in one of the nicest places in phoenix. Lots of palm trees.

Apart from chilling out, catching up with all my other family members did a lot of outdoor activities.
Climbed the camel back mountain .. 1.1 miles up and return. Quite steep and i almost thought would never be able to make it. But i did and so did my uncle who was 64.It was the best thing i did after being sedentary at home for the last 6mns. After 3 hrs of hike... the last thing i did was to move my body any further.

The next day a few of other family members joined us and we all(12 ) headed to Grand Canyon. It was the most lovely trip we ever had ...on our drive to it we saw the landscape change from dry land filled with cactus to pine trees and snow capped mountains.
Grand Canyon was formed some million years ago when snow melted and gushed through plains sculpting them the way it has done now.
There are 8 points to view Grand Canyon from

To see Grand Canyon was amazing...

There was a bus which took us from one point to another. It was hot(96degrees f) but the trip was worth while.
The next day took a trip to Sedona. Hiked the Cathedral rock and did all the tourist views in Sedona.

One of the most spectacular views that i have seen . The trip from flagstff arizona to cathedral rock sedona was just amazing.
The cathedral rock in Sedona is a steep hike about 1.1 miles up and back. Most places are dry hot and some shady with a small stream running by. The rock looks almost like lord ganesha . What is fantastic is in the beggigng of the trail you see cactus bloom and in between the trail gets all this shade from trees and cool breeze and fresh air from the water gushing in the stream.
It is'nt tiring as the trail runs from one amazing view point to another.I will post some pictures for you to see and enjoy:)
The last day went Kayaking in Canyon lake. 8 of us in a kayak and 2 in canoe. It was tiring but good work out and lots of scenic beauty to view. Saw couple of Blue herons, few swans and ducks swimming across the lake.

With all this beautiful, wonderful memories i head back to good old Connecticut on Monday night:(

Road Trip

2007-04-30T00:31:00.000-05:00

On a road trip i leave
To see a scene hard to believe
Thorns turn to pines
Rocks to snow capped mountains
From dry desert i travel
To a luscious green garden i ravel

I climb the camel back mountain
With a lot of perseverance and dedication
Like difficulties and sorrows
I walk one rock to another
All my fears come true
in the end i see it through.

As i stand on top the mountain
I see huge rocks turn small and little
teaching me a lesson of importance
time changes hurdles, minute and minuscule.

My eyes saw what i never reckon
spectacular change of a plain
to a canyon that i cant explain
first flush of the morning turns it blue, pink and scarlet
Twilight transforms blue to purple and to violet

cactus blooms red flowers
on top of cathedral rock towers
a white dove we see
peace and prosperity it foresees
The dry sand meets a stream
cascading through rocks
Turning every golden grass green

The gushing sound of stream i hear
smile it brings after a hard days hike i share
smell of cold water and fresh air
brings life to my nail and hair
Tall green trees protect
from the scorching sun that i detest.

pine trees to cactus blooms
from spring water to canyon lake
condors free fall or howling coyotes
humming birds to bumble bees
My journey starts, never to end
I have more to explore for i believe
heaven in here and its for us to preserve.

Off TO Phoenix!!!

2007-04-23T08:03:00.000-05:00

I am going away to phoneix for family reunion.. will be back next tuesday with more posts. Till then enjoy reading my other posts;-)

Mother

2007-04-20T13:22:00.000-05:00

This poem is for you mummy

Mother, there is so much about you
That i would like to tell you.
I am waiting for words to pour,
Like the clouds ready to shower

My mind is restless
Thinking of our various tales.
I am stunned by your beauty,
something i would have wanted hereditary

Your eyes gleam,
filled with color green
sparkles and shines
like rays passing a prism.

How can i describe
your gaze and glances
but for a peacock
in the rain that dances.

I knew eyes could see
But they smile learned through thee.
Surprise, sadness and joy
are emotions your eyes ploy

Your presence is so serene
your thoughts so clean
You never mean a harm
and maintain your charm.

Nothing matters to you
More than me and you
With me you are ready to share
every minute and second near

Your lessons of courage
were different and strange.
when i was shattered and torn
You held me by my arm.
when your support i crave
you taught me to be brave

You laugh when i do
You cry when i do
You Listen to me
advise and help me

Today i moved away
But in touch we stay
Your voice i remember
SO loving and so tender.

Often I do wonder
will i be able to gather
your qualities as a mother ?

What type of writer should you be?

2007-04-19T23:43:00.000-05:00

You Should Be A Poet

You craft words well, in creative and unexpected ways.
And you have a great talent for evoking beautiful imagery...
Or describing the most intense heartbreak ever.
You're already naturally a poet, even if you've never written a poem.

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

My Tarot Card

2007-04-16T12:59:00.000-05:00

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

This is an interesting post ...i checked this out from lotus reads.... Why dont you try and see what tarot card are you?

Lalitha Nivas!!!

2007-04-16T08:32:00.001-05:00

As a girl of thirteen,
On the terrace i often sat to think,
While i watched the sky painted Red and pink.
Fond memories of my childhood takes me
to a house called Lalitha Nivas
I often miss!!!

A big mansion in the burghal
which was simple rustic and pastoral
picturesque garden filled flowers
that my mind vividly remembers.
Two families spoke language of similar kind.
Lived with friendship in mind.

Celebrations and mourning happened here
family far and near got together.
I learned to sing and dance
My passions not by chance.
A house called Lalitha Nivas
I often miss!!

Across my home the trains passed by
I stood in the balcony waving passengers bye bye
flying kites,playing with cousins
or sound of trains
remains in my mind to cherish
that with no time or tide will perish

The birth of my little brother
named by us cousins together.
Lessons from the music master
caused ME much grief and disaster!!
Ranji and Jambi the sisters name
paati and maami confused for the same.
Fond memories of my childhood takes me
to a house called Lalitha Nivas
i often miss!!!

Gossips of women sat on patio chairs,
Waiting for the milk man to bring cows in pairs,
Fresh milk from the cow,
Or mangoes from trees above
Life then is all i yen!!

Like a thunder bolt it strikes
No more the mansion or the life alike
Separate ways of life as we take
I pen my thoughts for a poem to make
On the terrace I sit to think
As i watch the sky turn red and pink.
Fond memories of my childhood takes me
to a house named lalitha nivas
i often miss!!

Spring is here!!!

2007-04-12T00:47:00.000-05:00

As i pull my window curtain
it dawns on me for certain
Spring is here!!

Morning as bright as ever
Sky very blue and clear
birds have started chirping
flowers have started blooming
spring is here!!

No more cold breeze
No more winter that make you freeze
Like the waves in the sea
my spirit feels free
Spring is here!!!

The sweetness in the air
makes me sing&dance with no fear
my happiness has no boundries
as i see orange yellow birds on trees
spring is here!!

Like a dancing fish in the sea
blooming flowers I cant wait to see
whether they are pink or blue
i know not for true.
spring is here!!

Seeing golden grass turns green
is the most wonderful scene
I know not if its my favorite dream
but i sing, dance and screem
Spring is here!!

2007-04-06T12:34:00.000-05:00

This one i dedicate for N...

I went searching for someone like you
mountains,sea and lands all new
Strangers i met
with a hope to get
a friendship pure
yet so true
All through this fear,
you were so far yet so near!!

When life stood still
and relations meant nil
You held my arm
showed me your charm
your kindness so pure
your friendship so dear.

Destined time
made you mine
In my journey with you
I see colors all new!!
I dream to be with you
every path we take new!!!

Mood :Hopeful positive!!!

2007-04-03T19:18:00.000-05:00

Beautiful yet cold seems the moon light
Bright yet piercing seems the sunlight
Cold winter breeze we fear
Hot summer unable to bare
Top of the world
or down bottom untold
Life is such

When I look with eyes filled with colors
I see
warmth in moonlight
joy in sunlight!!
Beautiful cotton snow to follow
Cold winter
Pouring rain to follow
hot summer
Snow capped Mountains
Or tulips filled gardens
Is for My eyes to taste
when i learn patiently to wait.
Life is such!!!

Testing time will pass
and like seasons change
Time will change
Life is such!!

This picture is of my friend Dee in Alberta ..this picture makes me feel free independent and liberated.Dont you love it?

Mood: Confused !!!

2007-04-03T02:34:00.000-05:00

Far away from home,
To make another home,
strangers get together,
ideas and views
put together!!
In an attempt
to do something content,
they burn the midnite oil
live with anxiety and turmoil.
Days pass, nights pass
Seasons change from winter to spring
but only confusion,stress and anxiety
is all that they bring!!!
Miss dear and near
but allways wonder
Is it all worth to
make a home
far away from home!!!

Random Thoughts!!!

2007-03-30T21:15:00.000-05:00

Up and down,
still like water,
pours like rain,
Dark and dusky sky
or bright sun!!

Laughter and Joy
Turmoil and peace
Celebrations and Mourning
Death and Life!!!

Materialistic or emotional
social or secluded
career or Family
Additions or substractions
Why me why you?? luck, faith, hope & destiny
Time will tell....

Chennai Times

2007-03-22T21:13:00.000-05:00

After my wedding , I started catching up on my movies that i missed last 6yrs away from home . I fell in love with this actor called Surya!! Light eyed, dark skin , sharp features good acting capabilities. who cares!!! i was in love with him.
In the 3 months i lived in Chennai after my wedding I watched every single movie he acted. This is one of my favorite songs !!! It reminds me my days in Chennai....
I cannot sing like Shreya Goshal but i just wish i could, only for this one song:)
You too listen and enjoy:)) and tell me what you think of this song.
munbe va

This is cool!!!

2007-03-21T01:34:00.000-05:00

I saw this in one of the blogspots i was reading really cool. Check it out:)

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Childhood memories

2007-03-11T18:39:00.000-05:00

Time and again i think of my house where all us 5 grew up. My brother, sister two of my cousins and me . Those days will never come back. They remain as fond memories locked in my mind forever. Here are few
1.Summer holidays eating mangoes...slurp slurp..:)
2. Reading amarchitra kathas
3. Eating chat patet!!
4. Cleaning our big old house the mission imposible.
5. Watching our milk man bring his buffaloes in our garden.
6. Ceaser and the coconut tree both were my age.
7. Climbing our terrace and unable to get down ..as there were no stairs to the terrace ...we had to practically climb the wall and the poles.
8. Flying kites
9. Cannot forget how all of us named my lil brother after reading the story karthikeya. My parents decided to cut short and named him kartik:)
10. Stealing mangoes from our mango tree without our parents knowledge ...all 5 of us felt like we won a gold medal. The feeling was great!!
11. Eating molga bajji in our balcony while it would be raining cats and dogs.
12. Practising music in my bathroom before my music class...i disliked my music teacher.
13. Hated when he said i sang well. I wanted to quit so badly ...only becoz my uncles and cousins teased me and called me Saanii ( cow dung) while i sang verses where i had to say Sa Ni Sa Ni....
There is so much more to write...but thats for another blog.
Somethings are priceless like my childhood memories for everything else you have a master card:))
Tell me about your childhood memories:)

Uncertainity

2007-03-05T16:07:00.000-05:00

Uncertainity kills . How does one deal with restless mind? Being positive all the time is hard. How do you make them understand that this uncertainity wont last long. Things will fall in place and to be positive is the only way out.
One thing at a time , hope, faith and trust are all the goodies that will direct ones mind to be focussed. Its not too far away before you reach your goal. Aim higher and reach the stars!!!
Uncertainity will not last long.....:-)